Leah, I'm so sorry that you didn't have a good appointment, but happy that you seem to be at peace with the path you are on. I think adoption is a wonderful loving option, and a happy ending for everyone involved. Good luck with everything!
Oh Leah. Sorry it wasn't better news. I'm glad to see you are in a good frame of mind. I hope the adoption process isn't to long or arduous.
Leah honey my heart broke when I read about your appt. It's not fair dammit, not at all. I can't tell you how much it's meant to be journeying with you since our losses. You are a true shining light and I can tell with a certainty that you will be a great mommy. No matter how that you become one. Adoption is a wonderful gift for both parent and child and I'm thrilled that you will pursue it. That child will be very lucky! I don't think that you will have to give up your wish to be pregnant either. Maybe it's not in the cards now like you said earlier but it will be someday. Your body did it once it can do it again, maybe it just needs more time for whatever reason. I will hope like he!! that you get a bfp this month!! And I want to stay updated on how the adoption process is going as well!!
Thank you ladies so so much! Since we've made this decision there has been such wonderful support from everyone we've told and we're feeling really good about it right now. Of course, we're waiting out the 2WW to see if it worked this time though I really have no hope for it. I know that doesn't mean it won't happen but it's just easier to not have hope for it at this point. I don't want to spend what is potentially my last cycle upset and crying and a mess and feeling bad about everything like the last few.
We've narrowed down some agencies, decided on domestic adoption of a newborn and are continuing to do our research. My mom has a friend who put me in touch with her daughter who adopted a newborn after a similar struggle to mine, then got pregnant just a few months after her newborn was home. She's been very helpful and is making me feel so much better about the process and has even directed us to a really great agency that we're interested in.
I don't think we'll make any final decisions about how to begin really until we know for a fact that this cycle is over and we're moving on. Currently though I don't feel sad about it at all. I'm thrilled to have a break for my body and I'm thrilled to pursue something that really has been a lifelong dream. I also feel like this could really be an amazing experience for the whole family and extra special for Dh and I as well. It's just an experience like no other and I am happy that we have the opportunity to experience it.
With that said, if I get pregnant of course I'll be thrilled but I do still think that adopting is something that we'll do at some point. With all I've learned about it it'd be hard now to let it go completely. I guess we'll know our path for sure in two weeks regardless.
I can't thank you all enough for all of the wonderful support and Tiffany you bring tears to my eyes every time I read your posts. It has been so wonderful going through all of this with someone who understands and I sincerely hope that things work out for you ASAP and that you get your sweet baby very soon!
Hugs to you Leah. Sorry about your appt. Hopefully you will get great news soon and adoption is also an awesome route to go.
DH Paul 34
DD1 Victoria 6 July 2006
DD2 Sarah 2 Feb 2011
DS1 Theodore July 2013
Married Aug 3, 2002