This sucks. I've never been in this situation before. I've had baby blues or whatever, but nothing remotely close to this. I feel literally psychotic. Like I have myself convinced that I have a debilitating disease and will never be able to run and play with my children, watch them grow, etc. It is severe to the point that I saw my PCP yesterday for a neurology consult because I'm scared I have MS (due to tingling hands/feet the last few days). I'm experiencing severe, extreme anxiety, convinced I'm dying (I'm also convinced that I experienced a brain bleed or blood clot in brain during childbirth), etc. I made an appointment to see my OB tomorrow to talk about starting a medication for this. I can't go on like this... It is preventing me from functioning... Have barely been able to eat. Can't enjoy this incredibly sweet little baby. Just feel like I'm shrouded in darkness. Ugh. I am in constant fight-or-flight mode. Thank goodness my DH is a SAHD, because I need him. There is no way I'd be able to do this at home with all three kids all alone every day. He is my rock, the only thing keeping me remotely sane. I can't wait to see my doctor tomorrow and hopefully get started with some help. Thanks for listening to my vent. *Sigh*
ETA: To top things off, I've started running a low-grade fever tonight. One more thing to stress about and to make me feel crappy. Woe is me.