So, I've GOT to get this off my chest. Its kind of embarassing, but lets start a dialogue!
Gender preference... I've felt strongly throughout the pregnancy that this baby will be a boy. I've always wanted two little boys.
Our gender scan is Tuesday, and I'm worried that I'll be sad if we're having a girl. I feel super guilty for wanting a boy more than a girl. I logically know this is COMPLETELY irrational -- I can still dress an infant girl in the awesome flying robot & rocketship onesie we bought yesterday. If she were a little girl, she'd likely play loads of sports just like her Dad and I did (and still do). Inversely, if I have a little boy, he may love ballet. And mostly, I logically know that I'd completely LOVE any little girl.
I really sat down and thought about why I was so worried about having a girl. I came up with two reasons:
1. bullying. I was really cyber bullied in middle school, partly because I was about 5'8'' by the time I was 11. And I had glasses and frizzy hair. Girls can be AWFUL bullies and it hurts.
2. My sister was a really bad kid in high school --- like in and out of juvenile detention bad, which was really hard on my religious family. I'm worried about parenting a child who seems allergic to good decisions.
I know these factors are NOT unique to having a female.
...But I'll still be a little stung if there is no ding-a-ling on that ultrasound. Is this normal? Anyone else experienced this?
p.s. sorry this ended up so long!