Hello!: Coming out of lurking

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JenPelto's picture
Joined: 11/23/08
Posts: 73
Hello!: Coming out of lurking

Hey ladies! I've been a lurker until recently and I just wanted to say "hi!"

I'm a mommy to a tot named Cable and I own an artsy movie theater with my husband.

I had a miscarriage right before the holidays in December. It was (needless to say) a terrible experience. I had only told close friends and family, and I was thankful that I was so reserved about my pregnancy. I didn't have to "untell" a lot of people -- and I didn't have many strangers giving me hugs or sending flowers.

I became pregnant only a couple of months later and proceeded with great caution. I had read and heard that the odds were that I wouldn't miscarry again, and that the baby would have a higher chance of being born healthy post-miscarriage, and yada yada yada. Those odds didn't ease my mind at all.

TMI(maybe?) to follow:

Then, around 10 weeks, I felt a HUGE gush of something when I stood up to get out of the car and walk into a restaurant for lunch. I ran inside to use the bathroom and saw that it was blood. TONS of it. Heavier than the heaviest day of a period -- heavier than any day of my previous miscarriage. I knew it was over. I cried and cried in the bathroom and remembered I left my husband hanging. He was mid-order when I told him that we needed to go to the hospital.

Long story short, they "thought" it was a subchorionic hematoma. They weren't sure, because they couldn't see everything clearly, just saw a lot of active bleeding. Baby's heart rate was detected over 200, but my cervix was closed. They gave me around a 50/50 chance and said they had no real way to tell what was going on, or what they outcome would be.

I bled lightly for a few weeks and every day was emotionally terrible. I had several ultrasounds both in the ER and at the Doc's office in that time span and nothing seemed to be confirmed either way. The last ultrasound I had showed a baby that was growing appropriately and no active bleeding in the uterus -- just a small blood clot. It was about then (14-15 weeks?) that I started to tell people.

Anyways, that's the story of why I only lurked! I hope that it gives hope to any women out there reading this that maybe went through the same thing or have a sudden HUGE bleed -- bleeding is not always a bad thing, sometimes it's a GOOD thing! In my case, they never knew why I was bleeding or understood where it was coming from. One doctor told me that it was a "good thing" that all of the blood was going somewhere else instead of pooling in my uterus with my baby. That was the first time any doctors had given me hope. The rest just saw a LOT of blood and really thought I was miscarrying (as did I).

TLotus's picture
Joined: 08/28/10
Posts: 535

First, so sorry about your loss. I had two losses in the 6 months prior to this current preg. I know how difficult it is.

Wow, what an ordeal you have been through so far! I am happy everything is going well now! Welcome to the board! Can't wait to share experiences with you! Smile

sandraleigh's picture
Joined: 11/23/06
Posts: 2672

Welcome! We're glad to have you!

I'm sorry for your previous loss. I have suffered a miscarriage before as well, and I know how hard it is to be optimistic about the next pregnancy.

I hope things continue to go well for you!

kmm123's picture
Joined: 12/13/08
Posts: 1839

So sorry about your loss but I'm so glad things turned out ok with this pregnancy! Congrats and welcome!

MelanieP's picture
Joined: 09/25/09
Posts: 882

Welcome and congrats on the baby girl. I look forward to seeing the pics. I am glad that everything look good after all that you have been through.

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Joined: 11/08/07
Posts: 492


WOW and WELCOME! Wishing you a HH9M!

Joined: 09/13/06
Posts: 145

Hi and Welcome!
I am so sorry to hear of your miscarriage last year-they are tough. I have had three of them myself, the most recent one last October.
I am so thankful to hear your pregnancy is going well, despite the bleeding! How scary that must have been!
Welcome to the board!

thenamezkrista's picture
Joined: 12/03/08
Posts: 246

Hello, and welcome and huge hugs to you!! :bigarmhug: I have never been through it, but I admire woman like you who are so brave and continue to want that child. I am glad to hear all is well and I hope it continues to be!! Thanks for joining us Smile

Starryblue702's picture
Joined: 04/06/11
Posts: 5454

I'm so sorry for everything you've gone through in the past few months. But welcome to the board, we're so glad that you've spoken up now and we look forward to hearing all of anything you want to share now!