Things are still difficult but I got some great news today! I don't have cancer, just clogged milk ducts really deep down. It will hopefully resolve itself or bfing could be painful until I stop. I have a clean bill of health and that's all that matters! We're still broke and the bank won't refinance anything until dh gets a job. It'll all be ok.
Tomorrow I'm off to disneyland and then on the cruise! Its going to be the last vacation for a long time. I'm going to relax, enjoy time with my family and try to gain perspective on my life.
Will update when I get back!