hi everyone, i am feeling better this weekend. earlier this week, i wrote how i was feeling depressed/anxious regarding the birth of baby boy #2 and the adjustment to having a newborn and brand new family member. i am feeling better now because i have been able to take a nice long break this weekend. yesterday, i spent the day knitting. i am nearly done with a baby blanket for little river. it is not the world's most lovely blanket, lol. it is actually quite a mess but i am so happy to have it for him. we are not making a nursery for him like we did with son #1. we are just planning to use a cosleeper and then later have him share a room with his older brother. having the blanket nearly done makes me feel like i am making a space for him in this world. i also went out to a baby clothing store yesterday and bought him three pairs of newborn leg warmers and one pair of regular leg warmers. i remember these came in handy during the early days with darling boy #1 because he didn't like to be on the changing table.
i think i really, really, REALLY needed a break and some time to just space out.
also, i have started listening to my birthing meditation cds. for you first time moms, these things are great. if you have itunes, a great recording is "surfing for birthing" by shawndeya. it's all guided meditation and positive affirmations.
i know that i may feel depressed/anxious again soon (maybe even today) but i feel like i have had such a nice break this weekend and am now starting to feel happy excited--not just negative.