Having a bad day

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Having a bad day

I don't know if I'm hormonal or what but man I'm having a crappy day. I was happy when I woke up this morning and it all just went downhill from there. I was all proud of myself for deciding to cook for the first time since I found out I was pregnant. I made spaghetti in the slow cooker. It's easy to make and doesn't have anything in it that grosses me out but the smell of each ingredient was a little too much to handle. I got it done though somehow. Then I opened the garbage can to throw things away and there was a package that had raw chicken in there and the stalks from fresh broccoli...bad combination and it about made me sick. So I held my breath and ran it outside to the garbage can which was worse. Then I cleaned forever and fell asleep cause it wore me out so much. Lol.

I'm a substitute teacher and usually get all the jobs I want since I've gotten to know the schools so well in the last year but lately it's been so hard to get jobs and I think something is wrong with the program that they post them to. Well, I was supposed to get a job Friday and was all happy to start of the pay period with a job because usually it goes great from there. Well, I just got a call saying that somehow the system messed up and someone else got it and they can't change it now. I also emailed a principal about summer jobs since I heard there was a new grant for the schools and they needed people. Well that happens NEXT summer. I don't know what I'm going to do. I've really only got two more months of working before school is out for the year, and I have no summer job prospects and now that I'm pregnant I'm seriously concerned about the money. I feel so depressed now....

Oh and as I was typing this one of my cats is running around the house throwing up everywhere and I can't clean it up without getting sick myself. DH is outside cutting the grass and will probably be out there for hours. I'm so grossed out. And my house was so clean...

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Oh sweetie, doesn't it feel like when it rains, it pours!!!!???

I feel like I am in the same situtation (well kinda) I'm also a substitute teacher.....are you looking for a full time teaching position? What system do they use to call subs?? Is it AESOP? b/c one of the schools I sub for uses AESOP and it has been SOOOO SLOW and I too swear something is wrong with the system!! Luckily I sub for another school and they don't use that system and have been getting called 2-3 X a week. But right now its really tough for find a permanent teaching position....and while I'm not pregnant (YET!) we are hoping it will happen within the next few months, and if i don't get a contracted position by the coming school year, then we decided that I will find a full time job elsewhere, b/c we know we can't afford a baby on only 1 salary & my part-time subbing income. & it's so depressing b/c I worked so hard to get my teaching degree & don't want to give up and go find a "regular" job (not that anything is wrong with that, just not for me!!!)

Maybe you can try working summer school, or a summer camp nearby? I work as camp director for local day camp in the summer. It doesn't pay much, but good experience and super fun!

I was reading your other post about how DH has been super sweet & nice to you....make him give you a nice massage Wink

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Good luck!
I agree that if nothing else look into school age summer programs. At least it's a paying job and it does still work with your resume better than a lot of other jobs. I used to work as a school age child care teacher and it honestly paid more than me using my bachelor's degree. Maybe you'll make a connection that way? Our summer help was often teachers! (I did it year around.)

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lurking..........

BIG BIG HUGS Leah. I am sorry you were having a tough day. I hope that tomorrow is a million times better.

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Thanks ladies. Sometimes it's so stressful having to find something to do every summer. I've already checked into all of the summer programs around here and that's actually what I did last year. The local rec center offered a summer camp program and that was great but I can't do it while I'm pregnant. It's WAY too active. Last year I spent a good 3-5 hours sometimes at the pool a day...impossible to stay out of the sun that long and I get burned so easily already and it seems to be worse now that I'm pregnant. I also get kidney stones and I was outside and hot so much that no matter how much water I drank I was staying dehydrated so I had horrible kidney stones all summer. That will be a huge concern if it happens while I'm pregnant especially since I've had to stop taking my kidney stone medication at least for the first trimester. I also spent a lot of time out of town for the day at that job and was on a school bus a lot and...I just don't feel like all of that will be healthy especially considering I'll be in my 3rd trimester before the summer is out.

I also checked with the schools about summer school and they said everything is already filled but if anything changes they'll let me know. They have no after school program this year so that's out. I thought about tutoring but the closest center is an hour away. I could tutor on my own but there's really no guarantee that I would make enough on that. I'm not sure what to do.

I'm not currently looking for a full time teaching job because I'm disabled because of an immune condition. We're still hoping the disability is temporary but I was granted permanent disability and got back pay back to just a few months after I graduated high school. The disease can get pretty bad sometimes so it's important for me to take it slow, especially now. I would think it would be easier for me to find something part time, but it's not really. And yes the schools here do use Aesop and it's making me insane. I swear it doesn't work half of the time. Usually the schools just call me but there are some new rules and new principals this year and they're making everyone go through Aesop and 9 times out of 10 I don't see the job they put in for me ever and they have to go back and fix it anyway. It's making me crazy to be feeling a little better with nausea and such and to know that I can work and to have to sit at home not making any money! AGHHHH! Thank goodness DH isn't in any danger of his job changing since he works for his family right now. Stress...it's kicking my butt today!