I have been feeling emotional, but it's odd outbursts of crying. 2 times in the past few days I am just sitting there and I get a heavy cry come on from out of nowhere - not a hysterical cry - just a very tear flowing kind of cry that hits me out of nowhere!
Friday night DH and I were eating dinner and as soon as we finished I just started outright crying because I felt scared of losing our relationship, pretty much because since i've been pregnant I have no sex drive and i want it back - i miss being romantic with him and i miss the things we used to do. my sister assures me that all comes back and you're even closer after baby - i totally trust in that, and i can't wait... i just got nostalgic, i guess. so i told him my fears and he was really sweet and we had an impromtu date night - which wasn't much of anything at all except for a shower together and laying in bed watching TV together.
Lately he sleeps on the couch because he snores A LOT and i'm very uncomfortable so it's just been easier that way - but neither one of us would prefer it to be that way, so the past 2 nights we've shared the bed, even though his snoring got to me last night, i didn't care, i just wanted him with me, so that was nice.
today i had another cry outburst - it was on the way back from food shopping, i think it exhausted me and i am pretty much a control freak and since i was so exhausted i didn't ant to put the groceries away - of course DH doesn't have a problem doing it, he offered to because he saw how worn out i was, but i like to put the groceries away because i like to do it a certain way LOL... he actually did a good job, everything is in the right place! haha...
so other than that i'm ok, tired, emotional, bored a little bit. i woke up SO EARLY today because of the time change, and i am making a roast beef dinner tonight! for the first time, i never made roast beef before, i'm excited about it! i have it in oven right now and it smells amazing, roast beef, mashed potatoes, roasted asparagus and red cabbage! sorry thats off topic but i can't wait to eat this meal and i hope it comes out as good as my Mom's usually does! ha!