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Pity Party

I am throwing one. Join on in ...

1- I know AF is coming and I have lost all my excitement about this cycle Sad I am so sad.
2- We are doing our taxes this weekend and I have this feeling we will have to pay.
3- I ate everything I could get my hands on yesterday ... Scale had moved down but I guarantee that's gone.
4- I could use a hug.

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Aw Kim!! I know how you feel. I'm not in that emotional state right now, but trust me, after 13 cycles I know EXACTLY what it feels like. Sad That's the tough thing about the "virtual world" because I am sure we would all give you a hug right now if we could!

Also, don't worry about one day of bad eating. One day won't hurt you, I promise!! I eat whatever I want every Saturday (it's my day off) and then eat right the rest of the week and it has no bad effects.

I wish I could say something that would cheer you up, but I probably can't. Just know you have a lot of support.

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:bigarmhug:
Completely understand where you're coming from. The only time my weight has been higher than normal was when we were TTC and going through IF. There were so many times when I just felt like throwing in the towel and it made all those other bumps in life seem harder.

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Kim, Its still early that temp has plenty of time to go back up.. I agree if i could i would give you a hug. Im on my 8th cycle since the m/c and im right there with you when that temp starts to drop

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So sorry you are feeling that way!! Sending you lots and lots of hugs!!

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Thanks guys....

I think it is a combo of work stuff and another darn BFN that did me in this morning. Hoping the rest of the day gets much better.

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Aww Kim, I'm sorry! I wish I could give you a real hug but this will have to do :bigarmhug:
I know how frustrating and emotionally draining this whole process can be and when you add others stressors on top of it, it can be overwhelming. Just know that we are all here for you and we understand.

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Sorry you are feeling down Kim. Virtual hug! And virtual hugs to the rest of you struggling also!

I am feeling similar today. I have officially tested out my HCG trigger shot as of yesterday and today. Even though it's pretty silly to expect a real positive at this point, I am 6DP3DT, and already feeling upset and emotional that the IVF didn't stick. I don't have my pg blood test for ages, it's not even scheduled yet. But now I know that the trigger is out, I'll be looking for a real positive if I test. I'm pretty sure I won't test tomorrow, but I don't know if I'll have the willpower to wait all weekend. It's happened so many times and I'm just dreading the disappointment already.

I am a bit sad too....I am now 37. Sad I thought I'd be done with this nonsense when I was 35, 36 at the very latest and now we are inching into 38, if it happens at all. I have a ton to be thankful for, and it really bothers me when I get sad like this. Can I blame some of it on the tons of hormones we've pumped into my body the last few weeks? I'm kind of a mess today.

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Kim! ((((hugs!!!)))) d@mn you computer screen! Get out of the way so I can hug Kim! Can we say CB sisters? Ummm raise your hand if you tested TWICE today with BFNs. Sad *raises hand sadly* I am saying, screaming, don't give up hope! I know it's so hard. And then I think, even if I DO get a BFP what if...... Ya know? I looked back at my chart and I didn't get a + until CD26. So we still have a little hope right? Your temps are still way way above your coverline too. I must say.... I'm starting to think Christmas baby for myself. Maybe? Please God!! Give us a BFP!!! Oh, and p.s. I am a fatty McHog this week too. I just don't feel like dieting. I'm grouchy and b!tchy. Arrrggg! More (((((hugs)))))!

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KIM- HUGGY!!!!!!!!
I think AFs are excuses to eat bad, then after it's over, can get back on track and start looking forward to the new cycle!!
XOXOXO

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Kim!! :bigarmhug: :bigarmhug: :bigarmhug:
Im joining in on your party too Sad i found out yesterday that my coworker is pregnant and she wasnt trying .. AT ALL so FML !!! And i think im out this cycle too blahhhh

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Kara and Tasha- BIG HUGS back.

Marie- I feel horrible that we both tested and got BFNs today. I am hoping tomorrow am has more in store for us, and our testing buddy Leah.

For the rest of you ladies, I just want to say THANK YOU. I know most all of us are struggling but yet you continue to offer me support. I truly appreciate it.

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Kim, ya know what's funny? I felt horrible that I tested and got a BFN until I saw that you gave in and tested too. That made me feel better. Smile I just keep thinking, maybe if I test THIS time. Ok, if I test THIS time. *sigh*

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Thats why tests come in bulk ladies! they know were addicts and need to test several million times :).. I start POAS at like 7dpo "just incase" i dont want to miss that line.. plus thenin the future I can always think "i got a + test @......dpo"

PS girls- does our BL thing just keep going after the 8 weeks or do we re-sign up??

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Cait, you re-sign up. Sometimes they take a week break inbetween. The next one will probably be called Spring into spring challenge.

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Cait you sound like a real POAS junkie!!!

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Hugs to you, hugs to you.

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Alright, I'm re-joining the party! :party: See? I'm bringing out balloons and everything so it looks more fun. Wink
I'm sure AF will be starting today. And I'm more bummed out today then I was last month with the CP. I have AF cramps and a little red tinged cm. Double boo hiss!! I hate being down in the dumps like this. I really thought I would get a sticky bean this month, but I guess not. I'm glad you guys are there for a shoulder to cry on. Somedays suck worse than others....

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somedays are definitely worse than others. DH and I are hosting a BBQ for 2 other couples today and all I want to do is cry. I seriously feel like a wench for even complaining since some of woman have been trying forever.

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Kim dont feel bad even tho weve been trying forever the whole fact of not seeing a bfp is devastating Sad