This is a bit of a vent so I apologize in advance.
I am just annoyed with work right now. I am pregnant, working hard, blah blah. I don't know. I guess the real issue is the fact that I'm having the other baby this Fall and I will only get 3 months with him and then I am supposed to come back here for 40plus hours a week again. I don't get paid a whole lot in the scheme of things. I mainly work so that we can all have great insurance, but I won't even see much of my check by the time I pay for 2 kids childcare, gas for work, and a couple bills once the baby comes. I just feel like I am working for nothing now(and the baby hasn't even come yet.) Our work just switched to a new insurance plan which is a good plan, but it's so expensive. DH is in school full time and working full time and he is the primary bread winner, but we still need my job. The thing is that I like my job for the most part and I have some close relationships here at work. I don't know that I would be having such an issue with it if I wasn't pregnant. I didn't expect to feel this way. I guess this is what sums up how I feel: I don't make enough money for me to feel like it's worth my time to put my baby in someone's else care at 12 weeks old and return to this job just so that we can have good insurance... It seems futile. I don't love my job that much. Sorry to vent so much. Thanks for listening. Is anyone in a similar boat? Has anyone ever quit there job and made it work some other way? I didn't have to work when DS was born, but things are different now so I haven't really dealt with these feelings before.