I dont really have any worries or concerns about having the baby, the labor, delivery, any of that....
But the one thing that seems to come up is my inability to breastfeed. I have had bad dream after bad dream that I was either not feeding my baby, or unable to. and it makes me sad.
I gave up by day 4 with my boys, pumped for 6 weeks with number 2, but never actually breastfed, but I also didnt really try.
I am soooo determined this time to exclusively breastfeed, it means a lot to me. i know this our last baby and its the one thing I always regreted not doing, even though I was more then happy to use formula, and my boys are perfect, I just want to experience that bonding you hear so much about.
I have expressed my feelings to dh, who is totally on board, but doesnt think I need to put so much preasure on myself, my mom is 100% behind me and wished I had tried alot harder with my boys, and my inlaws just dont see why i would even bother (probably to be selfish since it means I wont be leaving out newborn alone with them)
I just had to get that off my chest today, my dream last night really had me bothered.
Thanks for listening.;)