Update: After 2 rounds of radiation treatment, my grandfather is now refusing any further treatment so they are giving him only a month to live. I am so completely heartbroken right now. I don't even know how to deal with all of this right now. I just feel numb. At this point, I'm just hoping that I at least have Sophia before he passes away.
I am seriously so fed up with the way things have been going for my family. It all started last year with the death of my grandmother (dad's mom) in March, then my other grandma had a quadruple bypass in September, then my niece passed away in October, and then my FIL passed away in November. I thought with a new baby on the way, things were starting to turn around, but then we had the issue with our dog being paralyzed, my grandmother got sick again and almost lost her leg, my sister had a m/c, I'm having contractions and could possibly go into pre-term labor....again, and now we just found out that my grandpa's lung cancer has spread to his spine and is stage 4!! I feel so bad for my mom because she is having to run her and my dad's business and take care of her ailing parents. My dad is living out of town right now helping my other grandfather who had a spinal injury back in 2006 so he's not here to help her. He comes home every 2 weeks and only stays a couple of days. That's an entirely different story and situation though! On top of all of this DH and I have been having issues for the last couple of months which we have been working out, but it seems like we take one step forward and 2 steps back so that just adds to even more stress. Thankfully he has been been really supportive lately so I'm hoping that is at least turning around.
I seriously looked up in the sky today and told God that enough is enough!! It seems like my family has been under this black cloud for over a year and I am so tired of it. I can't help but be angry at times like this, but my faith is seriously being tested at this point.
Sorry, I just needed a place to vent and get this all out before I explode. It's so hard to just act normal at work when you have so much stress at home. Makes me feel a little better to be able to vent.