Update: After 2 rounds of radiation treatment, my grandfather is now refusing any further treatment so they are giving him only a month to live. I am so completely heartbroken right now. I don't even know how to deal with all of this right now. I just feel numb. At this point, I'm just hoping that I at least have Sophia before he passes away.
I am seriously so fed up with the way things have been going for my family. It all started last year with the death of my grandmother (dad's mom) in March, then my other grandma had a quadruple bypass in September, then my niece passed away in October, and then my FIL passed away in November. I thought with a new baby on the way, things were starting to turn around, but then we had the issue with our dog being paralyzed, my grandmother got sick again and almost lost her leg, my sister had a m/c, I'm having contractions and could possibly go into pre-term labor....again, and now we just found out that my grandpa's lung cancer has spread to his spine and is stage 4!! I feel so bad for my mom because she is having to run her and my dad's business and take care of her ailing parents. My dad is living out of town right now helping my other grandfather who had a spinal injury back in 2006 so he's not here to help her. He comes home every 2 weeks and only stays a couple of days. That's an entirely different story and situation though! On top of all of this DH and I have been having issues for the last couple of months which we have been working out, but it seems like we take one step forward and 2 steps back so that just adds to even more stress. Thankfully he has been been really supportive lately so I'm hoping that is at least turning around.
I seriously looked up in the sky today and told God that enough is enough!! It seems like my family has been under this black cloud for over a year and I am so tired of it. I can't help but be angry at times like this, but my faith is seriously being tested at this point.
Sorry, I just needed a place to vent and get this all out before I explode. It's so hard to just act normal at work when you have so much stress at home. Makes me feel a little better to be able to vent.
Last edited by jac81; 08-05-2011 at 11:38 AM.
DS - Stephen 7/5/06 (born 6 weeks early)
DD - Sophia 9/16/11 (born at 37 weeks, 6 days)
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Hugs girlie......heres hoping things start lookin up for you.
Amanda~mommy to Kodey & Kaleb 4/29/99,Cameron 4/30/00,Cheyann 10/14/03, Cole 11/16/07, and Alli 09/30/11
Sending hugs your way as well.
Sometimes it just seems to pour down on us doesnt it? 2008 was Mom with broken leg, brother fell down a ravine and ruined his shoulder and leg, aunt fell off a ladder hurt her back, Dad diagnosed with brain cancer AND fell down and broke his neck, DH in hospital with heart problems... dd and I in a major car accident. It sucked!
Since then things have turned around and they will for you too! You will have a beautiful new baby and that trumps all the other heartache in your life.
Take courage in the little happinesses and more will come.
Mélodie: Sept. 27, 2008
Maya: October 26, 2011
I hope things start looking up for you and your family soon.
Callie Ruth *** June 4, 2008
Conor Brian *** October 4, 2011
My October Space
I'm so sorry that your family and you are having such a rough time. God won't give you more than you can handle, so I know that you are all amazingly strong and will come through this even stronger! Even though it may feel like you're being crushed under the weight of all this stress, you can handle it and you are doing an amazing job. You and yours are in my thoughts and prayers.