This pregnancy has been so very painful and it is really starting to wear me down. I've tried to stay on top of it, accept it is just how it is going to be this time, and press on... but sometimes I just want to make it stop :mad:
I had horrible morning sickness in the beginning, lost a total of 12lbs or something. big whoop, ok, so what, lots of women do. It lasted 3 whole months, into my 2nd trimester, finally subsided but I've stayed having horrible heartburn and indigestion since. That's just a part of being pregnant sometimes and at least I was able to stay hydrated and not be hospitalized for HG.
Then starting around 11 weeks I constantly had very sharp pains like someone was stabbing my uterus. We figured out that I just have an irritable uterus and that every time the baby knocked my wall it sent sharp pain signals out. That was hard, but eventually I got used to it. I wasn't happy to feel the baby move, which sucked. I basically dreaded all movement, which made me feel guilty too.
I started having horribly hard BH contractions around 18 weeks, they would tighten my entire stomach and combined with the irritable uterus, they hurt like hell. They were just BH though, erratic and strange and I just learned to try and avoid doing things that might trigger them.
Then at 25 weeks I started having real contractions and a lot of pressure. I went to L&D and all we could determine was my uterus was being irritable and they gave me some breathine. Baby had dropped and I was 1cm and monitored for a few hours, they went away and I was put on bedrest for a week and told to come back if I had any symptoms. Luckily symptoms never returned. I figure it was brought on by stress, this was at the same time I found out DH is a jerk and asked for a divorce
Since then I've had random odd symptoms of randomly odd things that my doctor just says are normal for a painful pregnancy. Baby is still low most of the time, he really loves to ride my cervix. He pushes on it a LOT and it hurts very bad. I have random spurts of extremely intense contractions that just put a lot of pressure directly on my cervix and it feels like a thousand little needles. My cervix is short and soft, but I've not dilated any more.
A week or so ago I had a lot of leakage, like jac81, just vaginal discharge. Along with that though I have had some very small vaginal boogers and even what looks like stringy snot. I figure this is probably pieces of my plug being pushed out by baby's head right on my cervix.
The first weekend of august I was in miserable pain for a few days. My stomach stayed tight the entire time, I had a LOT of menstrual cramping and the baby was hardly moving. Again, my doctor said it is just normal. It went away after a few days, but since then I will have random spurts of it again. Sometimes at night I get woken up by how uncomfortable my stomach feels and then in the morning my stomach feels sore, like I was doing crunches in my sleep!
I just feel like a whiny baby. I know some pregnancies are just hard and painful. Last night I was up for an hour with the pressure and discomfort and this morning I feel sore in my stomach and pelvis. I am starting to get so ready for this to be over!
My doctor just keeps telling me it is normal and I shouldn't worry unless things seem like they are progressing. I guess that is one thing, even though each individual spurt is progressively worse than the one before, they always start out at the same pain level and stay at the same pain level until they subside, except that one time when I went to L&D.
I just wanted to vent about it, since I am not a complainer IRL and I figure you girls would listen and understand. I'll make it through it and everything will be ok, it just is hard sometimes when you haven't slept in weeks. I was a poor sleeper as it was, now I just feel like a zombie. The 1st weekend in august when I was having those problems I literally cried myself to sleep a few times because I was so exhausted, I begged God for mercy so that I could rest. I was working on about 3 hours of interrupted sleep a night.
I'm grateful that these are the worst of my concerns so far, and if baby stays in there until term and comes out healthy it will all be worth it. It just gets to you sometimes, ya know?
Thanks for listening.