Back from my appt.. Not the best.. not the worst...

Feelin kinda down... got back from my appt, I guess I'm 1% reassured now, but still feel scared/worried.

The pap went ok... what you'd expect haha.

My doc came in, and I havent seen her in a while, and hugged me and was all excited and asked how I'm doing- and that just made me lose it! So i started crying, hahaha... and she asked what's wrong and I said I'm just so worried! So she said we could do the U/S before the pap if I want but I figured I better just do the pap- if the U/S was bad IDK how i'd make it through the pap.

Soooo she doesnt even LOOK for a HB with the doppler which was good- last time (with DS) when there was no HB it freaked me out! Soo, the US, theres a little sac, then a blob.... then shes just quiet... lookin around, im starting to panic bcuz i dont see a HB... then I see a tiny flicker, and she says oh there it is... lets see if we can hear it...nope we can't... so I just watch her looking frusterated trying to find a good shot/hear it and we had to give up, but she said there IS a hb and its about 150, so I mean that IS good news. It's still alive...

BUT only measured like 7w3 days and 7w2 days... so she said we could put my due date at oct 28th... which kind of bummed me out even though I knew it was possible that the EDD cld get moved BUT, just frusterating becuz that meanst he sperm would have had to live in me like 6 days before fertilizing. (which i guess is possible).. and that means I got a BFP @ 6dpo.. so that just kinda worries me that its growing too slow or that somethings wrong with it...and that would mean that my blood test I first got done was at like 8DPO even tho I still had numbers that were 11dpo.. Kinda sad bcuz I thought I really had figured it out and knew exactly how far along I was and now its rewound I feel like somethings wrong...

BUT the good news is she's having me come back in 2 weeks, she said normally its a month (which I was expecting) btu she doesnt want me to worry that long and that we can get a better picture in 2 weeks so I'll feel better, and reassured me that the chance of M/C after seeing a HB is a lot less, although not 0, blah blah.. SOOO two weeks from today I go back, hopefully my little froggy hits a growth spurt by then (It looks like a frog, haha)

AND is it sad that now I'm like 100% certain I'll have a November baby and I really really wanted October?? Thats so petty!! I feel soo annoyed at myself for thinking like that. Its like DEJA VU haha with DS I was due Aug 27th and wanted an AUG baby SOO BADDD!! And of course had Sept 12th, haha... and now I've been wanting an OCT so bad, and now I'm so dumb for being upset that I probably wont have it til November..when I just need to be happy that at least I'm pregnant.. ARGHH@ myself.. Anyways, sorry for rambling!!!!!!

Hey Girl.. I am on vacation but purposely logged on just to respond to this post. The same thing happened to ME! My ultrasound was off by an entire week! I was freaking out also so please know that you are not alone. I didn't even get to know what the heartbeat was because they couldn't even tell me. Remember that the ultrasound machine can be off by like 4-5 days which would put you right at your actual due date. I know it's hard not to worry (i have been feeling the same way as you) but the fact of the matter is that you have a HEARTBEAT and it's really strong! If you go look at my ultrasound pic my baby looked like a frog also :) Everything is going to be great! You get to see the baby again in two weeks which is amazing :)

hugs,

Hayley

I'm glad you're feeling some better. I know easier said than done but really try not to worry. You did see the hb and that's great! Do you know exactly when you Od? Maybe that was off a little? Anyway, try to focus on the fact that you saw your 'lil babe wit a hb. :)

Congrats on the hb! That's such great news!

And we're still twinsies! I'm in the same boat as you, with the due date pushed out. It has been really upsetting for me. I know when I ovulated, so being 5 days behind is really worrisome for me. My husband isn't worried about it, the doc doesn't let on that she's worried about it, but I had to go and do "research" online about it and I just stressed myself out (almost had my first certifiable panic attack ever). It's sad because I seem to gloss over people's similar experiences with positive outcomes, and only focus on the negative. I should be doing the opposite!

Anyway, I've had countless u/s since week 4, and the little bean has been the same number of days behind each time. My doc said what matters is that he/she has been making consistent progress in growth (e.g. - a week's worth of growth in a week's time), so I try to focus on that and the positive there. I've found that not going online (sites related to pregnancy) is helpful for me personally, because I just get worked up. If someone has a positive story and everything is perfect I'm upset because I feel like I'm not there and something is wrong with my baby/pregnancy, and if someone has a negative story I'm upset because I feel like that could be me. I had to break my rule to come check on you though. :)

The good news is - in October/November we'll be able to look back at all of this and smile, with our healthy babies in our arms. And it'll make all of this even more worth it. :bfing:

Cait honey I know it's hard not to worry but ultrasounds are so often wrong - especially the early ones! I had my 18 week U/S with DD and my due date from my LMP was Dec 25, u/s showed JAN 12th! Then again at 36 weeks (cause my OB was a b!ch and didn't want to see me - claiming I was only 34 weeks, but anyway...) I had to have another and that one showed my due date as JAN 16!!! Well DD was born on Dec 31st (induction) and she was way 'over cooked' the doc who delivered her said she was at least a week overdue...
Just try to relax for now Hun! :bigarmhug:

Hearing a heartbeat has to be at least a little reassuring. I know it can be frustrating but just think the positive from where you were thinking 2 weeks ago to today you have a heartbeat at a pretty good rate. {{Hugs}}

Aww Cait try not to worry too much. I know it is near impossible and I worried after my first u/s too. It showed me about 6 days behind where I thought I would be. I had calculated being at least that from when I tested positive and with the date the u/s gave me it had me testing positive in the afternoon with a really dark test at 10 dpo. Had the u/s today and the baby had a nice growth spurt and I measured 5 days ahead of where I did last u/s so she moved my due date up, said this was more accurate. With baby 6 that happened too I had an u/s at 7 wks measured behing according to my edd, thought I just O'd late, the next week I had spotting had another scan and the baby had gained 4 days in a week! That the baby had a hb of 150 is a great sign that is a great heartrate for 7 wks. Here's a chart:

Normal Fetal Heart Rate Chart

Fetal Age/ Size of the Fetus	Normal Fetal Heart rate
2 mm embryo and gestational sac diameter of 20 mm	75 bpm
5 mm embryo and gestational sac diameter of 30 mm	100 bpm
10 mm embryo	120 bpm
15 mm embryo	130 bpm
5 Weeks (Beginning)	80-85 bpm
5 Weeks	starts at 80 and ends at 103 bpm
6 Weeks	starts at 103 and ends at 126 bpm
7 Weeks	starts at 126 and ends at 149 bpm
8 Weeks	starts at 149 and ends at 172 bpm
9 Weeks	155-195 bpm (average 175 bpm)
12 Weeks	120-180 bpm (average 150 bpm)
After 12 Weeks	120-160 bpm (average 140 bpm)

Thanks girls. I am feeling a little better. I guess worried because we couldnt HEAR a heartbeat, just see a little bit of a flicker.
I dont know if the rule is once you HEAR a heartbeat the chance of m/c goes down, or once you SEE it, but I know i'd feel a lot better if I could hear it. So I'm really glad I get to go back in two weeks to check on things again- my doctor is just really really sweet.

Thats reassuring to hear that a bean could gain days in just a week, maybe I'll be caught up at my next one.

I'm pretty sure within a day when I O'd, and I was even counting from the last possible day I could of O'd (I was thinking where I O'd would put me between the 20th-24th, and I was just going to go with the 24th so I would think im the farthest behind possible...so I wouldnt be disapointed if I was 'behind) anddd so hearing the 28th I was like AHH!!! Somethign must be wrong with my baby if its growing so slow!! Especially if I tested then at what would be 6dpo!! argh.. yikes here comes kevin I better run before he catches me on here worrying.. hehehe.. xoxo

Hugs Cait!

Glad you saw the h/b and it sounds like your dr is great!

Yay for the heartbeat! Great news!

I thought I was due on the 24th also (and still do), however, when I had my scan on Monday they put me at the 27th. I wouldn't worry too much. That calculation for me is counting from the first day of my last period - - not my O date. I wouldn't worry too much about 3-4 days. I didn't get to hear the hb either, however, I did see the little flicker on the screen and it was the most amazing thing ever!

Glad you get to go back in 2 weeks!