Oh man I was not this emotional with my DD. I cry all the time it seems like or if i'm not crying i feel like I could cry and i'm fighting it back. We were watching American Idol last night and when they were down to the bottom 3 I started crying because I felt so bad for the person leaving and how they felt, then they showed their family crying and I lost it again. DD and I were watching cartoons together one night and I started tearing up, why I have no idea.
The really kicker is Thursday nights DH bowls with a bunch of guys. I was late gettting home and it was a stressful day at work. I started crying driving home about work and not having many friends and wishing I could have a girls night or just get away just a ton of crazy irrational thoughts for no real reason. By the time I got home (a whole 15 min drive) I was bawling. I walked in the door couldn't even get it out to DH why I was crying, he proceeds to walk out the door and i started crying harder. I'm now thinking OMG if Hailey's a handful tonight I can't handle it I really don't want to be home alone with her tonight (not that she's bad or anything) DH came back like a min later and said he wasn't going bowling. He called his buddy said I was have an pregnancy breakdown and couldn't make it. That made me laugh though so I calmed down after that.
I feel like a mess and I'm always tired. DH asked me last night why I was so tired at 830p I just looked at him my response "I"m growing a human you grow a human and try to be superman at the same time its not going to happen." HAHA I feel so bad because i wasn't crazy emotional with DD so this is kind of new to DH but he's being so nice and supportive and trys to cheer me up. I'm not all angry and yelling at him so thats a good thing right lol