Sensitive today....

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Sensitive today....

I am so sensitive today?

For those that don?t know, we had a m/c in late November. We had been trying for 5 months and were ecstatic that it happened. The m/c really got to me emotionally and took about 2 weeks before I was ready to even really talk to people again. Since then, I have been doing pretty well emotionally. We got right back on the TTC bandwagon so I have my fingers crossed that we will get pg. again.

Fast forward to today, DH signed us both up for pregnancy emails. It was the sweetest thing, but after the m/c he never canceled us. Normally he deletes them before I see them, I guess. Today, I got an email announcing we had hit week 13. I broke down at my desk at work and cried? what the heck is wrong with me? I keep just starting to cry over it time and again this morning. Ahhhhhhhhhh? maybe now that I have told you guys, I will feel better.

Anyone else have periods where they are fine and then just break down?

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I understand sweetie. There's nothing wrong with you. Just yesterday I signed into fertilityfriend.com and it showed that I was a part of the due in July 2012 board. It made my heart ache. I remember getting those weekly pregnancy emails with my first loss. It reopened the wound each time I saw one. Time helps heal your heart but you'll never forget. Let yourself grieve, there's no time limit.I had been doing good too but then had a super emotional day this past Sat. Just wanted to stay in bed and cry. Good ole' hormones, huh?? I am praying hard you get a BFP in a couple of weeks!!

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Kim,

First, huge hugs! I'm so sorry you're feeling so sensitive today. There is nothing wrong with what you're feeling. A miscarriage is such a painful experience and it will stay with you for a long time. I wish it wasn't the case but it is. Please know that you can *always* come talk to us on the TTCAL board. The women on there understand what you're going through and sometimes just talking about it will make all the difference. I get baby formula sent to my house all the time and I still get emails reminding me that I have a 10 month old, 5 month old and that I'm also 29 weeks pregnant so I understand the pain of constantly getting reminded. I've tried so many times to get off of these mailing lists but the emails, letters and free samples keep coming. I completely agree with Belinda, there is no time limit for grieving so give yourself as much time as you need.

Sending you lots of sticky BFP vibes!!

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:bigarmhug:
I can't say I understand completely because we've never had that kind of loss, I do however know how it feels to be fine and then suddenly break down. Thinking of you today!

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I've never had a loss like that so I don't know how that feels exactly. I can imagine of course that it would be absolutely heartbreaking, and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't have managed it as well as you have. I can say though that with TTC, I have days that I'm just sad for some reason. I have times when I can hear about new babies and new pregnancies and be around all the pregnant women who don't even want to be pregnant and complain about it and everything and it doesn't bother me and then there are days when just the smallest thing sets me off. Lately it's been the baby commercials. All the snuggly baby commercials make me so sad sometimes and occasionally I'll burst into tears even if I didn't feel sad before. It's just such an emotional struggle, not to mention the hormones involved that can make it harder. I think it's completely normal to be this way. It's not an easy thing to go through no matter what you've faced and you've faced something really difficult. :bighug: I hope talking about it helps you feel better and that this month you'll get your little sticky bean.

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I'm sorry you had such a hard day Kim. Hopefully you can curl up on the couch with maybe a hot chocolate this evening

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Aw, thank you guys. I think I just virtual hugs today and you guys gave me just that. I appreciate it.

The day got a little better as it went on, and I was able to keep from crying again.

I wish that I had a cup of hot chocolate but I am trying hard to stick to the eating plan!

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Missed this yesterday, but wanted to send :bigarmhug:

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Thank you! Today I woke up feeling much better about things. If it is meant to be, it will happen.

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:bighugs:

I know its difficult cause I kind of feel the same way... I had a miscarriage in april of last year and it took us 6 months to finally get pregnant and then I had the miscarriage, we waited the 3 months that the dr suggested and now we are at my 7th month of TTC again. I've pretty much been trying for a year and Im started to get upset...I dont get those reminders but when I see pregnant girls I get all sad cause that could of been me.

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I completely understand Karen. It is just harder some days than others.

My best friend just had twins... she really didn't want more kids at first, and it so damn hard not to be jealous. I just adore them babies...