Okay had a slight meltdown tonight. I just wanted to post this here even though technically it may not fit here because I just know you girls will understand. Tonight all of a sudden I just got really sad thinking about the possibility of endo and what it means. Mostly I think I'm sad because I worked with a lot of foster children today and children that were recently taken out of their homes and put into foster care and it just broke my heart. I've kind of had this feeling for a long long time that maybe I wouldn't be able to have my own children and I wonder if there's a reason I felt that way. Because if my immune condition I'm just not sure how long I can continue with TTC if the results of my tests show that it's going to take a lot of intervention to get me pregnant. It's so hard on my body and my body is already pretty rough to begin with. So I got online and started looking up adoption info and found all of these websites that have pictures and profiles of the children and I have just been sitting here crying. It just makes me so sad all of it. I know I'm getting WAY ahead of myself considering everything I heard at the doc was just a theory but I feel I need to face my reality and that's that my body can't take too much of this because it's hurt to begin with and that's never going to change. I want to be prepared for any outcome so that when I hear what the doc says we can just pick up with whatever path we feel we need to follow so I'm trying to investigate it all. It feels better just to get this out on here. I didn't feel like this until after DH fell asleep and so I have no one to talk to about it right now while I'm sitting here crying and freaking out. Sorry for the long winded vent but I just had to get this out somewhere.