Thank you so much to everyone.
I'm sorry I didn't write more yesterday. I needed some time.
Luckily, this was my ex's weekend with the kids, so I needed to try to stay together while we drove them down, too.
I've had more time, and have gotten to cry alot, and some good talking with Tom and I'm feeling a bit better.
Basically they did the scan and they said the baby hadn't grown past 7 weeks, and that there was no cardiac activity. Baby must have passed very shortly after my last scan. They are sure, and without any growth at all, I feel confident that they didn't make a mistake. Really, they have been negative about how things looked from the first scan at 6 weeks, so I should have expected it.
Since it's been about two weeks, and I haven't even had a spot, and my hormones are still high, he felt that the wait for my body to pass things naturally could be long, and he said that that could be bad for me too. He was certainly open to not doing the d&c and waiting if I wanted to, but Ijust want this over with. My body isn't normal when it comes to expelling anything in there anyway, so I might as well have the surgery and move on.
I just feel like jeez, as if this isn't bad enough, they have to do surgery?? I wish I didn't, but I just want it over.
As far as our TTC journey. Well really, the only good news to come out of this is we know we can get pregnant. In four years, this was our first positive test. We aren't giving up. We still want our together baby. It might be the wrong time to be thinking of it, but what's getting me through things right now, is knowing it's possible, and that we can try again. The dr was pretty sure it wasn't our problem, or anything we did, so he said we can try again. As long as everything is ok on Tuesday, he said he will help us do more clomid cycles in just 6 weeks. It's going to feel like a long time, but it's really not. Ironically, 6 weeks from then will fall almost exactly on our fourth year anniversary of TTC.
So I really hope you see me back around the due date clubs sometime soon.
You ladies are all amazing people, and I hope each and every one of you has an easy pregnancy, and a fantastic sweet little baby in October, and I certainly plan on stalking you along the way. Thank you for always being so nice and welcoming to me. If anyone wants to say hi to me, please feel free to pm me. I would love hearing from any of you. I will miss you all!
Susan, again... I am so sorry for your loss. You have such an awesome attitude. Please give yourself some time to grieve this baby before you feel like you have to move on. I will miss you around here! Please check in when you can/feel like you are able to. HUGS!
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I am so sorry for what you are going through. Bailey had died 3 weeks before we knew it so I understand what you are going through. I also chose to have a d&c as soon as possible. It is hard to go through. I suggest asking your doctor for something to help you sleep for a few days and pain meds. I was surprised how much and for how long the bleeding was. Take care of yourself. Give yourself time and permission to grieve.