Things have been pretty stressful at work lately, I have a lot to do and not enough hours in the day. Today it all came to a head and I started crying. The only member of management who was there called me in and had a chat with me and by the end I was bawling. It's really rough right now and I am not coping well, with home or work life. I had to make a commitment to attend at least one counselling session through our counselling provider at work because they are concerned I am showing signs of post natal depression. I have too much work on right now to take time out for counselling so hopefully I can bluff my way through to not need more sessions, because I already have an hour out of my day to pump(ok nearly an hour and a half because if I wasn't pumping I would only be taking 5-10 minutes for lunch). It's just been so hard lately and I feel like I am not doing my job properly and that I am being judged for it because I am a parent.
So sorry everything is so stressful.
Angie- you have taken on so much more responsibility than I can ever imagine having to shoulder. I hit my limit recently with half the stuff you have going on (okay, less than half, probably way less than half). Maybe bluffing your way through the counseling isn't such a great idea though. Maybe you should talk it out with a professional and see what they say. If you are having any problems they could possibly help you work through solutions and such.
We're all here for you whenever you need us, but sometimes, you need a professional. I know it seems like a time sucker but you have to be concerned about your mental health too, not just everyone else's.
Hey lady. I understand where you're coming from. Being a working mom is TOUGH! You clearly take pride in your work and that's awesome but there comes a time when you've got to take pride in yourself. Your happiness and your work performance depend upon it. If that means cutting back on your work responsibilities and taking time to see a counselor then that's what you have to do. It might seem like just another burden right now but it'll be worth it in the long run especially since you're planning on going through all of this again soon. You need a little help coping with your duel roles and that perfectly OK.
If cutting back is really hard for you than promise yourself that you'll work even harder once you stop pumping for Ronin. If you're planning to stop at a year that's only 2.5 months away! (I dream of the day I can stop pumping ). Or just do what I do, remain in denial about how crappy a job you're doing at work! It took me awhile but I finally realized that no job is more important than my job as mommy. So long as we're good at that we're doing AWESOME!! And you are one heck of a good mom. See? All is right with the world.
I'm so sorry that work is stressing you out and you are stetched too thin. Maybe talking with someone will help you release some stress though so even though it seems like a PITA it might work out to be good. And yes, those pumping days are probably getting to be fewer rather than greater so just think that at some point you'll free up some extra time!
~Joy~ DS1-8/5/05, DS2-10/18/10 (VBAC#1), DS3- 4/11/12 (VBAC#2!)
Well I will be having an appointment sometime tomorrow and my supervisior is also referring me on to a support that provides wraparound services as well. It's all provided through a service provider contracted to my work place for staff so no cost thankfully. I guess they all think I am pretty bad right now, need to work harder on being normal