So I don't like being away from my kids overnight. They don't even stay the night with grandparents, because I just miss them. I have only been away from DD1 (almost 5) 5 whole nights in her entire life, and that includes the 2 nights I was at the hospital after having Lainey. And she was 3 when we left her overnight for the first time.
I have to go to a conference next week, and I have to be gone 4 nights/5 days. I am FREAKING OUT. Lainey is still nursing, and she comes into our bed halfway through the night. She always wants me. When DH brings her in, she goes straight to me. Last night when she came in, she put her arms around my neck, smiled, pulled me close and said "I love you." It is going to be so hard on her when I'm not there for 4 nights in a row, and hard on me (and hard on DH and DD1 because there is going to be lots of middle of the night crying). I'm also going to have to pump some because she's still nursing, and as I found out one busy day, I get painful and slightly engorged if she goes 12 hours without nursing.
Am I abnormal to feel this way? I have been panicked about it ever since I found out, but now that the time is almost here I am freaking out and can't stop crying when I think about leaving.
Does anyone have any advice on how to make it easier to leave/be away?