For those who don't know I have a 5 year old, and a 13 month old(obv.), and I am due NEXT MONTH! Yes my aniexty level is high right now... well I am also moving at the end of this month from a 4 bedroom house to a 2 bedroom apartment( I have no choice) so I am a little freaked out, and my Fiance does not live with us.. so as of right now till probably April I am on my own.
Well my 5 year old is in Kindergarten and today her teacher asks me "If there is any chance Alexis could be depressed?" As bad as this sounds I wasn't shocked by her question. Alexis has been thru a lot and in a very short/fast time.. so it wouldn't surprise me if she was depressed. She doesn't sleep at night, she is whinny and unhappy a lot of the times, she doesn't eat. Even her teacher has to fight with her to eat no matter what I give her. Alexis is not only defiant at home, but even at school which I wasn't aware of at all.
I have an appointment for her to see a Pedi on the 24th.. so I am hoping they will have some answers. Some days I just wanna break down and cry, but I try to be strong for my kids, and look forward to the days where I can have ALL of my family together.
A lot of my "so called friends" stopped talking to me for choices I have made so it's been really hard and it is tough things to talk about, and I don't talk about it in front of Alexis, bc there are some things she doesn't need to understand. All she needs to worry about it being a kid, and she is trying to do so much more, and is made to do certain things, and abide by certain rules and she shouldn't have to. It's been really hard on her.
Anyways I just had to vent/talk to someone so if you made it this far thanks so much for listening!!
Big Hugs Bekah.
God gave Joseph his sister Juliet on November 19th, 2010.
~Jackie, mommy to Aiden (11/2/10) and Zoe (VBAC 11/27/12)
It is a lot to deal with and I will keep you updated on what is going on!! Thanks for all the hugs I sure could use them...
Thanks everyone!! Sometimes I have my breaking points, but I have a lot to worry about. I am due in 6 weeks time, and with my 1st son.. I am so used to girls, and know nothing about raising boys. I hope I won't have to do it alone for a long time. It should only be a couple to 3 months. So that is what I am aiming for. Once everything is back to normal than maybe my oldest will go back to being her normal self. I hope anyways!!