Hey girls some of you I know very well and some of you I don't. I hope that as the time goes on we will all be very close to each other. Anyways I have to vent, bc there is a lot going on in my life and I can't stand being judged for choices I have made by my "so called real friends" If you know what I mean??
Before my bf and I got together there was some issues in his past.. without going into detail it went to court and he was found guilty.. he was put on 2 years probation. I knew all about this before we decided to move in together, and I was fine with it.
Anyways bc of cps you might as well say I am a single mother to soon to be 3 kids. I am not going to lie that thought scares me and what frustrates me the most is that I am actually with someone who would gladly help me out with my girls(Brookelyn will soon be adopted by him, as soon as everything is said and done), but bc of cps they will not let him basically near the girls.. I mean for some reason he is still living in our home with us, but he is only there basically to keep me company is what they said. I am torn apart and my girls are suffering from it. He is made to push them away. I have known him for some time now and really feel that my girls are at no risk at all, but social workers don't see it like that.
Like I said most of my friends don't have a lot to do with me bc of the decisions I have made, but I can honestly say as a mom if I really thought my girls were in danger in anyway him and I would not be together.
Right now Brookelyn is 11 months old, and she hates to be changed/dressed/or bathe, and yet I have to do it alone every single time. I am 22 weeks pregnant and not supposed to be doing a lot when it comes to lifting, carrying, doing a lot of heavy duty house work.. due to bleeding problems earlier in this pregnancy. My pregnancy is considered high risk, and I am supposed to follow these rules, but it is kinda hard when I have no choice, bc you might as well say I am a single mother of 2 right now.
I am doing everything I can to follow the rules when it comes to cps, but I really feel they are being unfair. They said that it is my fault if I lose this baby, and there is nothing they can do about it. Everything was fine before I moved to this province.. I had rules where I used to live as well, but nothing to this extreme so I am having a hard time dealing with it all.
I am sure it will come down to it bc this is what they are trying to do now is tell my bf he has to move out.. I am just dreading that day bc the baby is a daddy's girl, and my 5 year old calls my bf her best friend. I feel like I am being judged for everything I do or say and I hate that feeling. I hate being "watched or have tabs being kept on me" I just really want them to leave us alone and let us live our life.
If you made it this far I appreciate you reading and thanks I know it's long, and probably a stupid vent, but I had to turn to someone. I am not sure how much more I can handle right now?? ...
Last edited by Rebekah_21; 10-24-2011 at 04:50 PM. Reason: updating
I don't have any advice since I've never been remotely in that situation, but I can give many hugs!
~Jackie, mommy to Aiden (11/2/10) and Zoe (VBAC 11/27/12)
It's ok I wasn't looking for advice I just had to vent to someone. Thanks for the hugs I am sure going to need them. I think this is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with... and let me tell you it isn't easy, but I am doing the best I can.
This is another situation where it would be nice if some of us lived closer together so that we could help one another out.
I hope your situation gets resolved soon and you can get some peace.
Lyla 10/06/10 ~ Kole 04/06/12
Thanks, that means a lot and yes I wished we all lived closer for sure. I hope it gets resolved quickly as well. Thanks for listening to me vent
Thank you I just really hope things start to change very soon!!
I don't know much about CPS, but I am a single mother of 2 and I know how hard that is and how strong you have to be all the time, whether you want to be or not! I know you are doing what's best for your children and you are amazing to be doing it all while you are pg. Hang in there, vent to us anytime, and PM me if you ever want to talk.