Totally random, but it doesn't feel like Christmas. It doesn't feel special and I feel no excitement about it at all. I assembled the stupid little trike/bike thing I got for Kole. I say I, because I did it. All of it. I shopped. I bought. I got it out tonight. I am the one who will wrap it (if it gets wrapped). DH didn't even know anything about what they got until I got it out tonight. If it had been up to him we never would have got presents at all for them. They way he sees it is that they are too young to care or remember it and they'd have been fine without presents. It really irks me. These first few Christmases aren't about what they will remember. I will remember it! And I will remember the piece of crap toy I just assembled that is total junk and not good enough for my babies. I will remember how I tried so hard to make it special and exciting and nobody else gives a flying fart. I wish I'd married a man who was concerned about making days special for me, ever. He doesn't. I hate this $hit. I hate life.
I'm right with you ladies! it doesn't feel special anymore. i just try to force it for Lucas, DH mostly complains or rolls his eyes. I don't even go overboard with Christmas stuff, i just try to make it a fun time and carry on traditions I had as a kid.
So hubby says yesterday he has been talking with his brother who has said he can help him get a really well paying job after he finishes his apprenticeship next year. This now gives hubby a few options, stay where he is, go to the defense forces as a cook or this other job which is a cook as well, but will be an away job, I think he said 4 weeks on 2 off. I got excited and said ohh if you get that one it will be enough money for me to either quit work altogether and be a SAHM or at least go part time, just for some extra cash. Hubby thinks that plan sucks and wants me to stay working fulltime and put his wage directly onto the mortgage and live off my wage only to pay the house off in like 2 or three years. Basically that would also mean we would have to stop TTC as we couldn't afford two lots of daycare on my wage alone, but hubby thinks we can and still have 4 kids. I hate how he doesn't think things through on a practical level, like caring for kids alone all the time seeing as his time off he wouldn't do much to help around the house, finances etc. He is too impulsive at times.
Anna, my DH is like that as well. He complained about how much work it would be to put away all the Christmas decorations when I was putting them up, even though I am the one who hauled everything up from the basement, put it all up and will be the one to put it all away-all he did was carry 3 empty bins back to the bottom of the basement stairs after they had been sitting in our entry way for about 3 weeks after I put everything up. He also complains about giving gifts because he hates the thought of spending money on anything "unnecessary"- I basically get to listen to a lecture on watching my spending and not spending too much every time I buy any gift and I do not buy for a lot of people, nor do I spend very much on anyone, except for DD and we didn't spend tons on her-her big gift was a toy chest which DH approves of because it means the living room will be more picked up looking. I bought him a couple shirts for Christmas and was happy that he actually agreed to keep them and didn't insist on returning them. He didn't get me anything for Christmas, but I don't really care about that, I told him I would be happy if he would try to spend some extra time with me and DD. And I did some husband and toddler free shopping today while my mom watched my DD and bought new ornaments for our tree for next year on clearance so I count that as my Christmas present. He of course was less than thrilled about me spending on Christmas decorations-the ultimate unnecessary thing, but he complains less when other people are around so I didn't hear too much about it now as we are at my parents' house, although I can almost guarantee he will bring it up the next time we get in a fight about something. I like to bake Christmas cookies every year and he always complains about that too, he's like "you don't need to make a lot of cookies, you always have too many" Which is true because my whole extended family bakes cookies and we all bring them to all of the get-togethers so we have probably 15 kinds of cookies, but the point is, I like baking cookies even if we don't "need" them and especially now that DD is getting old enough to enjoy helping me in the kitchen, I want her to get to have the fun of helping bake them. And the reality is that I don't actually get around to making very many with my crazy work schedule in the month of Dec., even if I talk about it, so quite raining on my parade already and let me have the fun of talking about it without complaining.