Today I had to fight back the tears at work. DS is turning two tomorrow and his birthday will be marked wih his caregiver at the drop in program they go to on Friday and that got me emotional. I started thinking about attending and then started feeling sad about how he other sahms there might judge me for showing up 2 hours out of the year. In the end I have decided to take the morning off work and attend. I want to see him here with the kids singing and to have the memory. (we aren't doing a party this year since our family is all out of town and DH is working weekend and we couldn't find a date that worked - so it will be just the three of us).
Anyway - I had thought I would had cried when I first returned to work but honestly I enjoyed being back at work (although I would prefer part time). DH and I have discussed me going to part time when the kids are both in school.
Oh mommy guilt - hurts you deep down in the tender bits!!!