to get through the next 2 weeks! Its gonna be rough.
Hubbie starts a military training today. only 2 weeks, no biggie. we made it through a year long tour. Cept im pregnant now, easily stressed out and he is the only one who helps make it all better. I have my brothers wedding tomorrow and rehearsal tonite, he is going with me tonight, but i need him with me tomorrow and he isnt sure if he will make it. a little wedding romance sounds real good about now...LOL On top of it, i have ALOT of drywall mudding to do between now and then. Gonna try to get as much of the basement done as i can so that i can get DD #1 moved down there, then i can rip up the carpet and padding, paint and put in new carpet for Kendra :D... i should wait for him to get home, but it will set us back 2 weeks and i will have no parts of delaying this.
All in all, none of this is a big deal. like is said, this pregnancy is causing serious anxiety issues for me and im worried about it since he wont be home. i am one of those ppl who try to be "everything" to everyone at all times and i have finaly admitted to myself that i cant be. its not possible, my body wont let me lol by the time i get home from work, i am utterly exhausted and in pain (pubic pain) and i just need to lay down. he backs me in the evenings, i cover the weekends. he is the only one who i have to lean on anymore. he is the only one who understands how i feel, why i feel what i feel and how to calme down when feel that way and i panic at the thought of not having my rock for 2 weeks so, i am asking God to give me the strength to not freak out in the next 2 weeks! To not yell at my daughter for reasons that have nohting to do with her, and to stay calm when certain ppl are insensitive to my sensitive feeling and who dont understand how easily my feeling are hurt. I ask that my anxiety issues stay at bay just for the 2 weeks!
Sorry, i just needed to get that off my chest!