so I haven't been posting lately and i feel bad for ignoring things here, i try and just can't get past reading post.
here is what is going on
I had been worried about my dog buddy he is a boxer, and my first dog i raised from a puppy.
I made a vet appointment for Tuesday, and at first vet thought it was his spleen, then after the xrays we found out he has Heart disease, which is terminal. so vet put him on meds, but they made him worse, then we brought him back to vet Wednesday stopped the meds, then brought him back for a recheck yesterday, to be sure it wasn't his spleen, but when they ran the ecg,m he kept having arrhythmia's and had mild tachycardia. Vet spoke with cardiologist, and put buddy on 2 different meds, but he said just take him home and love him until the end, since he isn't suffering, his heart will probably stop in the night when God decides to take him. buddy is 8 years old he has a month until his his bday.
I am just so upset because not only is he my pet he is my baby, Buddy was also the only one who knew i was pregnant before i did, he started to listen and lay in my lap a week before i even found out. he has been a constant couch companion during my pregnancy and I don't feel like i can do this with out him. i have dreamed of my little baby growing up with my buddy, but now im not even sure my buddy will get to meet this baby he helped grow.
On the other hand i am worried to death about going into labor and not having my mom or Dh to take care of him because they are to concerned with me. Ofcorse no one will take care of him the way i do except my mom.
its just not fair, if you all don't recall i lost my cat Maxx on Christmas eve and now i will have to lose my sweet little buddy.
I go from trying to be happy and love him up to being really sad and crying, i know its not good for the baby but i can't help all the different emotions i feel.
I know i will get through this but i just don't feel prepared or excited about the baby right now.