not sure where to start but i miss you all, i am having a hard time stealing a few moments to myself these days and the computer is usually the last on my list of pleasures right now.
I don't think i have PPD, but i know i am on the edge.
I love Lilly soo very much ans she is the best part of my day. I love being a stay at home mom, but DH and i are having problems.
we are having financial problems, and I am tired of telling Dh that he needs to find a way to pay the bills, cus his crap part time job aint cutting it. I hate asking my family for help all the time.
The good thing is i am now using cloth diapers almost exclusively but doing diaper laundry every night is getting old, since i only have enough to last one day, my sister just ordered me some more one size pockets so i can go at least two days.
I would be getting more sleep if I was able to go to bed right after putting Lilly down for the night but I try and get her Diapers done and a few other things that get missed.
I am also having the other marital problem and it is not for lack of me wanting him. it is the other way around.
we had a blow out fight the other night and i thought for sure we got everything out but still he is taking his sweet time on finding more work.
I never realized how bad i would want to stay home to take care of Lilly, on the other hand i couldn't afford the daycare.
I have so much more i want to talk about but alas Lilly's cries call me.