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so this is my 3rd week back to work. The good news is i did not have a mental break down when leaving my baby girl the first few days. YAY! i did cry a bit and had to force myself to walk out the door. Luckily, my first day back she was home with DH. So here i am, sad as can be. i can barely focus on my job cause all i can do is think about her and stare at her pictures that are on my computer. (i have about 50 of them LOL). i do NOT want to be here! While i know i need the paycheck, i feel like i am wasting my time here. i twiddle my thumb quite often while here, which doesnt help at all. i am bored, which leads to more day dreaming about being at home taking care of Kendra. i hate this! If i win Zillions in the lottery i will share my winning to all my working mommy friends. :).

Ok, rant over. Back to work Sad

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Hey lady! Unfortunately I don't have a choice about going back to work since my hubs doesn't work to stay home with the kids. His job as a mechanic is way harder on him than my cushy desk job, and I made the same as he did when he stopped working. But, if there was anyway I could work from home, I'd jump on it. I hold the insurance though, so that really wouldn't happen. I hope it gets easier for you, or that you win the lottery!!

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I am with you both! I never thought I would want to stay at home but now I cannot imagine working through her life. Maybe...maybe...after we pay off the children's hospital I will be able to quit but it is going to take a while to pay off that 2 week stay. Sad

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yep, i never wanted to be a stay at home mom. i envisioned me as the strong, i can do everything, hear me roar type of mom. and now that i AM her, i dont like HER Sad Though i must say, with me away more often, it does make the good moments even more special. i have a hard time getting Kendra to smile for me. this morning while getting her dressed, she smiled like crazy and she even gave me a giggle. that was the best 5 minutes of my week.

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I’ll take some of that Lotto money! I felt that way with my first. This time around Im appreciating the adult time I get. When I go out for lunch, I get to eat it HOT and not cold when someone else can hold the baby you know? I would rather be the one to be taking care of my sons, but because I can’t (I carry the health insurance and we need the $) I try to find the positives in it. I am lucky though, my sister (who takes care of my children) takes pictures and sends them to me at work and she keeps me updated through the day. I appreciate them when I get home and weekends are a blessing. It is tough though. Pumping and breastfeeding keeps me feeling connected while Im gone so that also helps. Maybe someday I’ll stay home. OH and yes I”ll agree the smiles are the BEST THING!

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"Jessica." wrote:

I’ll take some of that Lotto money! I felt that way with my first. This time around Im appreciating the adult time I get. When I go out for lunch, I get to eat it HOT and not cold when someone else can hold the baby you know? I would rather be the one to be taking care of my sons, but because I can’t (I carry the health insurance and we need the $) I try to find the positives in it. I am lucky though, my sister (who takes care of my children) takes pictures and sends them to me at work and she keeps me updated through the day. I appreciate them when I get home and weekends are a blessing. It is tough though. Pumping and breastfeeding keeps me feeling connected while Im gone so that also helps. Maybe someday I’ll stay home. OH and yes I”ll agree the smiles are the BEST THING!

im trying to find the positives in my situation too, unfortunately the only positive i can find is the pay check LOL as for adult time, i work with 2 men over 53 so it doesnt count as adult time HAHA as for appreciating nights and weekends, yep, i take is as much as i possibly can but i feel like im missing everything. i pump at work too and i agree it does help alot! DH told me recently that if a way to pay off the mortagage, car payment (put them all together it equals to my paycheck) then i can quit my job. He's such a smart *** LOL

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At times I would change places with you working moms. I get so jealous when I hear my husband talk about where he went for lunch or this and that. I miss conversation and deadlines. I felt like what I did made a difference because I saw results then.

I know being here is important, it's just hard at times. I just joined a mommy group so we'll see how it goes. Too bad we all don't live close to each other Wink

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"KerriWeasel" wrote:

At times I would change places with you working moms. I get so jealous when I hear my husband talk about where he went for lunch or this and that. I miss conversation and deadlines. I felt like what I did made a difference because I saw results then.

I know being here is important, it's just hard at times. I just joined a mommy group so we'll see how it goes. Too bad we all don't live close to each other Wink

i understand. i know if i were home i would want towork LOL idont get much conversation there, 2 men over 55 there, but its a check, even if i currently hate my job. i do wish we lived closer, it would solve alot of our problems LOL