Hi again, I was wondering if I am the only one that feels like I cannot get past the NICU days. I just still feel overwhelmed and still go back to the "what if" of how it could've gone and just have nightmares of it happening the other way around. I find myself remembering little things about being there and how small they were, the doctors tone when they were concerned about this or that, just everything! I know everything is ok now but I still feel very hurt and resentful towards my friends who have an amazing birth story while mine was complete and utter terror. When people ask me how old they are I either have to make a choice and tell them their adjusted birth date or give them their real birthdate and have them comment on how small they are and then if I give in and tell them they were micro preemies I feel like I am going to have a panic attack so I never do that again. Anybody been here before? I dunno even what to call it!