I never seem to have enough of it. I've just been feeling very guilty and bad lately about the times when my patience wears thin with the boys. Oftentimes, they are not even misbehaving per se, just stalling or dawdling or not listening - as in just generally acting like toddlers. For example, today I was trying to get the boys ready to go have lunch with their dad. So I am changing Gabe's diaper and clothes and trying to put on his shoes, while Isaac sits nearby and reads a book. The way Isaac 'reads' is to point to pictures and go "uhh!" and then I name the picture for him, which is fine. But at this point I'm exhausted from working all night, and frustrated because I'm having to fight Gabe to get his clothes on, and hearing "uhh!" "uhh!" every 5 seconds louder and louder is really starting to irritate me. So I shout "stop Isaac! All done book! I'm trying to change Gabe!" then of course feel bad because really he just wants to 'read' with me, and he's just a toddler, he doesn't understand the bigger picture of trying to get ready to go, etc. I feel ripped in half sometimes because I don't have enough patience with or attention for both of them, and it's just me.
Also sometimes I find that I have to be physical with the boys in the sense of, for example, grabbing their shoulders or bodies and physically redirecting them to something appropriate (like when we're at the store or park and they start running away from me). Or when they try to get onto their dad's computer, I always end up grabbing someone's arm to pull them away, because "no computer, let's go to your room!" doesn't work. I don't want to give them the message that being physical is OK, but when there's one of me and two of them (and they are developmentally incapable of complying to my words), what else can I do?
Sorry this is so long, I'm just at the end of my rope and I feel like an awful mother.