I feel like I am not a very good mother of twins. My girls are at such a hard age. I love this stage because they are so aware of things, and they love to help (without complaining like they do when they are 8 or older) with housework, etc. However, it is so hard managing two three yos who seem to always be upset about something. The screaming, yelling, crying, and general tantrums just wear on me. Yesterday, Sarafina refused to come in the house for some reason. She would run to the door, then run away, then run back. The windchill was below zero. I had to physically go pick her up. Then, Keira decided she did not want to sit in the middle carseat this morning. And...she threw herself on the floor of the car (again cold temps) and I had to crawl in and pick her up and put her in the seat. All the while, she is screaming at the top of her lungs. Then, she threw her mittens on the floor, and cried because she wanted them back. Good golly. I lose my temper with them so much more than with Isaiah. No amount of deep breathing and counting helps sometimes. They just keep going at it, and driving me up the wall. It makes me feel so guilty.
Overall, the girls are so great. They are super funny, and I love them to pieces. Those challenging times just really taint it all, you know? And...let's not even talk about potty training. The girls need to be trained. They know what to do. I just cannot get them to realize that underwear is better than diapers. I mean, how do you make that rewarding!!!??? Pee and keep playing, or put down your blocks and run to the potty? They are smart enough to know that the potty and underwear are more work. Good grief. Keira was even dry all night last night. That is a first. She did go on the potty this morning, but that is all we get. Morning and before bed, and that is only sometimes. I cannot even get it consistent. I am failing them on some level. That is how I feel. If I could give them more time, maybe we wouldn't have the tantrums so much....maybe they would be potty trained. Boo for feeling this way!