Hi Carmen! Welcome to the board! I'm so glad you found us. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I'm so glad you were able to recognize the symptoms easier the 2nd time around and get on meds right away. YOU are a great Momma!!!!
Pop in and post when you can. We love newbies!
I'm Sue , SAHM to a 8 and half month old baby girl.
I really do not know if I have ppd , all I know is I haven't been myself for the past 8 months and its getting progressively worse. I doubt DH understand this, can't blame him coz i don't understand it myself. As for a support group, I live in a foreign country with no family around. To make matters worse , we moved to a new town, hubby got a new job, moved to a new house , had a baby all in a span of 2months. I have not taken any medication yet but have seeked counselling that helped for as long as it lasted. I expected to feel better now that baby is sleeping through the night and i have adequate rest but I am angry and confused all the time. I am hoping its a phase and i'll be myself again soon. I'm so glad i found this website.
Hi Sue! That's great that you found this board . And congratulations on your little girl.
Do you have a doctor yet where you're living? If you do, I would definitely go talk to them, and see what help they can offer. There might be some sort of PPD support group in your area. You've gone through a lot of changes, and I'm sure that's contributing to some of the emotions you're experiencing.
KUP if you can!
Carolyn - 37
Wife to Chad - 39
Mom to Tom - 15
Nathan - 10
thanks for making me feel welcome. I so badly needed to belong to a place where ppl understand what i feel.
Ok I just relized that I never posted an introduction! Anyway, better late than never I guess.
My name is Claire(23) and my Dh is Clayton(32) and our DS is James born on 6-8-06. He is the best thing that has ever happened to us. I love him with all my heart and he has made my life so much fuller since his birth. That doesn't mean I still don't have tough days. I have been battling with clinical depression since I was 15 years old. I have always been able to keep it under contol pretty well except for when I was 17.
I got pregnant when I was 16 and had a baby girl at age 17. I gave her up for adoption. It was a beautiful part of my life that I will always cherish and love. Although, she is not with me, she is where she belongs. Her family loves her just as if they had carried her for 9 months. They give her everything I couldn't at that time. The hard part about her adoption and my pregnancy is that it resulted in PPD. I don't think I could have recovered from it without the support of my family and mostly my mother.
I am now happily married and have my own new baby. I still had struggles through out this pregnancy, but was more prepared for them this time around. I have to pay attention to my feelings everyday and take care of myself, but I am happy to say that most of the time I feel like a normal, happy, healthy person. This board is a great place to come for support and I happy to be a part of it.
WELCOME!! I'm so glad you're here, Claire! (Even if it isn't under the best of circumstances, we sure can use your expertise around here!)
My name is Jessica. I have two boys, Carter who is 4 and Grant who is 10 weeks old. I had severe pre-e with Carter and had to have an emergency C-sect at 35.5 weeks. He was transfered an hour away to a hospital equiped to care for premies and spent 8 days in the NICU due to premature lung disease. I was devastated and began to feel depressed however, I did not recognize that I had PPD until after the fact (more than a year later). I promised that if I felt PPD with my second DS that I would get help right away. My second pregnancy was much like my first, pre-e, C-sect and my son was delivered at 37 weeks 2 days. He too was diagnosed with premature lung disease. The day after he was born I felt it coming on, by that night I was a wreck. My baby was in the NICU down the hall and I felt like a failure as a mom. I couldn't understand why I would have 2 babies that had such a rough start when I had done everything right (vitamins, exercise, eating right). It made no sense to me that my son had premature lung disease when he was NOT premature. I felt like I was going to die, the depression was so bad that it literally hurt. When the nurses would bring in my food trays, I felt as though they had brought me poison. I didn't eat and I didn't drink. I walked back and forth from my room to the NICU and I cried. I felt like my heart was hanging outside of my body. That night when the Dr came in my DH and I talked to him and he gave me a Rx for Zoloft. It made me so sick that I was not able to take it. After 8 days in the NICU Grant was well enough to go home, I felt like I had a little more hope, I began to eat, and function somewhat more normally but it was definately still there. Last Monday my Grant was 9 weeks old and I realized that I was not being able to give 100% to my family because I am still dealing with PPD. My DH had been noticing my weepiness, my friends had noticed my withdrawal, I knew that I needed to call my Dr. I called my OB and he called in a Rx for Lexapro. After only one week, I feel like a different person. I had done my best to convince myself that I could handle it. Afterall I have a strong faith in God a good family, essentially a perfect life. But I realized that God gives us comfort and help through Dr's, medications, and the support of family.
Sorry this is so long, I would never normally tell people so much...
Welcome, Jessica. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I'm so glad the Lexapro is helping you. You are a remarkable woman to have gone thru virtually the same thing twice. I truly believe that a strong faith is very helpful in situations like this...but sometimes, like you said, God gives us comfort and help thru Dr.'s, medications and support of family. Very beautifully said!
Please feel free to post on the board and KUP on your recovery.
Congrats on little Grant! I hope Carter is a big help with him!
Hi everyone, I'm Melissa, and I'm 23. I had my son Noah (our first) on 8/4/06. He was born by C/S 4 weeks early, because I was getting very sick from gallstones, and my doctor thought it was in the best interest of me AND the baby to take him early rather than risk infection of me and him. He was born at 6 pounds 1/2 oz, but was very sick. I got to see him for about a minute after he came out, they didn't even put him on my belly. Then, they took him straight to the nursery and I went to recovery. My hubby went to the nursery with him and took pics and brought them back to me, but then Noah went into the NICU because was having trouble breathing. I wasn't able to get out of bed to see him at all until almost 24 hours later, and he was in an isolette and hooked up to a ton of machines/IV's. That first night, before I'd even gotten to see him, I had really horrible panic attacks and couldn't stop crying, I just felt like his condition was all my fault because it had been our decision to take him early. Noah was in the NICU for 10 days - I got to touch him hand on day two, and hold him on day 4 and feed him on day 6 (pumped b/m from a bottle). When he came home and my husband went back to work, I started having severe anxiety/depression. The breastfeeding and pumping only added to it. Finally I saw my doctor last week and, without even asking me what my symptoms were, he prescribed Zoloft. I have been on meds for depression since I was about 16, so I guess he didn't think anything had changed.. My insurance wouldn't cover the Zoloft so I went back on Lexapro and Xanax, which I was on before I got PG. But, because of those meds, I had to stop b/f, which I think is a blessing for me because it was one of the major triggers for me, I'm not sure why.. So, Noah has been on formula only for about 5 days now and I'm starting to finally feel a little normal. I still have no appetite, and have a hard time sleeping, and find that I have to take Xanax almost every day. I don't know if I necessarily have PPD, or just plain ol' depression and anxiety... but I'm hoping to find a lot of support on the board!
Hi Melissa! WELCOME!
I think you'll find that there's a great group of ladies here & they really have some good advice. It's interesting to me that Bfing seemed to be a trigger for you..... It was for me, too, however, everyone that I mentioned it to, thought it was very strange because when you bf, your body releases natural anti-depressants (can't remember exactly what it's called) that's supposed to make you feel really good.
I always ended up bawling my eyes out whenever I breastfed, & I never really knew exactly why.
For you, maybe it was just causing too much anxiety?? Were you still having to pump?
Congrats on little Noah. Please KUP on his progress and yours.