Well, I just got home from our 2 wk apt. (after delivering our angel son). I knew deep down that we wouldn't get any answers but I still couldn't let go of the little hope left that we would. Physically, I am doing well. I am still leaking milk that continues to be a cruel reminder but I feel good physically. I think, all considering I am doing well emotionally too. I am still crashing a lot and crying a lot but I think that is normal. My empty arms often ache but in time I hope that will lessen. I had a difficult time going back into the ob office. I cried the whole way knowing that just 2 weeks ago we had our whole family in the car; so elated to find out the sex of our lo and now we were driving back to get a hard hit of reality of what had happened... It stung. I cried while we were there, not wanting to view anyone in the waiting room that was pregnant, knowing that was the place in life that I should be at right now. The dr. was great. Didn't rush us, answered all our questions and was very sincere and sensitive to what we are going thru. By all means I never want to forget our baby Reid and replacing him will never happen but please tell me that all this pain will eventually lessen with time?!? It hurts so much and the void that i have is unbearable.
Thanks for lending an ear!