2 years, 2 months, 2 weeks, 2 days (s/b ment, lc ment)

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2 years, 2 months, 2 weeks, 2 days (s/b ment, lc ment)

So I was looking at my ticker today, marking the loss of our Joseph -- it was at 2 years, 2 months, 2 weeks, 2 days.

How can so much time seem like yesterday, but at the same time feel like forever?

How can those 2s pop out at me so much? We've recently started considering not having any more kids, and the two we have on earth would be the last babies we have?

I'm very much defined by my loss, even my user name at everyplace else, and my HyenaCart reflect him. Crescent Moon is the heraldic symbol for second son, and that's what he was.

I still cry when I think of him, and what could have been, and I'm expecting I always will.

Janel

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I'm sorry you are having a hard time. He will always be part of your life and you will always love him. Losing a child, at any stage or age, is the hardest thing we ever have to face.

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:bighug: I wish none of us had to know the horror of loss...The way it changes us forever..

Thinking of you and your sweet Joseph...I wish I could tell you that eventually it won't feel like yesterday....

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Hugs Janel. It does seem like a long time ago, and yet yesterday, and I was just a lurker then, so I can only imagine how hard it must be. I think it will always be that way. :bigarmhug:

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:comfort: Janel, I am so incredibly sorry for not responding sooner. *sigh* I'm having a hard time believing that it has been two years already. I am so grateful still that you allowed us to follow in your journey with Joseph.

As for the twos... it always surprises me what can trigger emotions (for me personally.) I love how you shared the symbolism behind the "Crescent Moon". I was not aware of that but what a beautiful tribute and way to continue to include him in your life!

I know you recognize that you will continue to mourn your sweet son. I wish that there was a way that we could say that we could erase the pain, but I know that if we had that sort of power certainly we would not be here in the first place. What does bring comfort for me in my own journeys is finding those ways (however small) that do allow me to remember -- such as you did with selecting that name to treasure. In that way I am able to continue to keep them "living" within me.

((((((HUGS)))))) Thank you for sharing. Please do keep posting when you can.

~Missy

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I know exactly what you are going through. Going through these triggers is like going through the event all over again. Please know that i will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I am very sorry for your loss and everyone's loss here.

Tina