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4 weeks ago (m/c ment)

4 weeks ago we lost our baby at 11weeks 3 days. I figured I should finally introduce myself. I have been avoiding pg.org ever since...but I have been slowly coming back and lurking some. My name is Jenn and my DH is Bryan. We've been married for nearly 4 years and had been TTC for nearly 2 years. It was such a struggle to get pg that it made it all the more difficult when we lost our little one.

Unfortunately we had some very bad news at my 11 week u/s a few weeks ago. Which came as a complete shock because when I had an u/s in the ER at 9w 5d we saw a very healthy bean kicking and moving around. But at my scheduled u/s just a week and a half later we were told that the baby's heart had stopped beating at 10w. I was devastated and in a total state of disbelief!! It was awful and the most painful experience of my life...I eventually m/c'd at 11w 3d. I am thankful the Dr was nice enough to give us a couple u/s pics when I asked to remember our little angel, Sawyer. I am making a memory box to keep the pictures in.

I am doing much better now. Everyday gets a little easier. I've been back to the Dr a couple times and he is optimistic everything will be ok soon. I have to get some bloodwork this week and again in a couple weeks. And if all is well with that it'll be back to metformin and clomid sometime in the next few months. Wish us luck. We had great success with the first round of clomid after 8 months of metformin, so I am hoping it'll happen quickly the the next time we try too. I know I'll be terrified when we try again but its something I want more than anything.

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I am so very sorry for the loss of your baby Sad .. I have experienced many losses....Based on my beliefs, God is who enabled me to get through them..No way that I could have done it on my own.

I don't know if I will ever be able to talk about my lost lo's IRL without having my eyes well up with tears..On line is what I do best when it comes to sharing my grief.

You came to the right place..The women on this board are so wonderfully supportive..

Take one day at a time..



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:bighug: I'm so sorry for your loss. We are all here to support you through it.

I hope that things settle down quickly and that you can TTC again soon.

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I'm so very sorry for your loss. I know that's pretty much all you hear but even from someone who has experienced a loss, we know that its not the words that can help heal, its time. Love, support and hope will keep you going.

While we are sad you had to join us over here, we are glad you did. These women really are amazing. When I lost my daughter Kylie (@ 19 weeks), 1 month ago, these women helped me pick up the peices and continue to do so whenever you ask!

When you do decide to TTC again, there is a TTC after a loss thread that is also just wonderful!

My thoughts are with you. :comfort:

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I'm so sorry.

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I'm so sorry. Please know that we're here for you. This board has been so helpful to me and I hope it will be to you as well. It's a great starting place for healing.

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I am so very sorry for your loss.

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I am glad you have shared your story with us. I am so very sorry for your loss.

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I am so sorry for your loss. Your story is very similar to mine, although I never had infertility treatments. My baby was active and had a good heartbeat at 9 weeks during an ER visit. When I went for my 12 week appointment, she was still, heartbeat was gone and she was in heaven. Words cannot discribe what I was feeling at that time. I would not wish that on anyone. The ER never gave me pictures from the US and I could not bear to take the ones from the next appointment. I have an angel figurine I painted for her and a build a bear to cuddle when I need to. I had a strong feeling my baby was a girl and named her Rachael. Some days will be better than others. Give yourself as much time as you need to heal. It is understandable that you are scared about trying again after this. I am thinking of you and wish you the best.


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I'm sorry for your loss. I too had a similar situation. At 10 weeks, we saw our baby moving & kicking and heard her very strong heartbeat. At my 16 week appt, DH and I found out our baby girl had gone to heaven at 13 weeks 6 days. We are all here for you. :bigarmhug:

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How are you holding up?

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I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs and prayers. I hope that your ttc is much shorter this time around.