So I had my 6 week followup today. It was pretty uneventful. My csection seems to have healed up nicely and my insides they say are back to normal. I asked a few questions (of course) as to if anything has come up that can explain why Zara died and he said no. I guess they will never give a reason. I told him I thought that them sending me home those 2 times and me being in labor from Tuesday night until I had Zara on Saturday morning probably had something to do with it and I let him know that I do not think I should have been sent home. I was proud of myself for saying that. I also told him that I think the doctor on call should have done the csection sooner. He of course said some bs about hindsight, blah blah blah, but at least I feel like I said what I thought. I do totally blame them for what happened. This is the last time I am going there. i am going to change my doctor; I only went today because I didn't know who else to go to and I wanted to get the 6week checkup done and over with.
Anyhow, he gave me a prescription for some bcp. I don't know if I should take it or not. They said I should wait at least 9 months to get pregnant again. I had to do IVF to have Zara so the odds of me getting pregnant on my own are very slim. BUT I have had 2 mc's in the past 7 years that I got pregnant naturally with. I know it would be really bad if I got pregnant but with my changes of getting preg so low, do you think I should take the pill? On one hand I think if it happens, it happens, but then on the other hand I know it wouldn't be good for my body or mind to get preg so soon. What do you guys think?