I am angry today. I think is has to do with AF coming soon, but I am pissed off at the world.
I lost my mother at 12 and stepped up to take care of my father and brothers. I lost my dad at 22 and again stepped up to take care of my family. Now I lost my daughter and I can't step up. Why do I have to experience so many losses? I am a good person, responsible, caring. It is not fair. It is not fair for any of us to have to go through loss.
I don't know if this is part of the healing process or AF, but I am pissed!!!! Why can't I just wake up and be happy for the life that I do have. I am married to a wonderful man, for 3 years now. I have friends and family who try and care. I have pets. A beautiful home. It is just my health is not the best. Anxiety and depression have taken over, especially around AF time. It just isn't fair and I hate that fact that it has happened. I miss my parents and my daughter and nothing I can ever do will bring them back. I am angry that the world can be so unfair.
Thanks for listening.