Ladies as some of you know I have been in therapy and taking meds for depression and anxiety. Well I am suppose to go back to teaching on Wed. Jan 2 and the thought of it makes my anxiety go through the roof. All I want to do is sit and cry and be by myself or with husband. The thought of other people or being on display terrifies me. I don't know how to break this cycle. I am going to the dr. and therapist today. I hope they give me something to help allievate this panic. I was doing great until last Saturday and then on Christmas I fell apart and it has been getting worse since. I am so frustarated with being this way. My husband says he lost his daughter and wife on June 18 and that hurts so much. I want to be the same as I was I just don't know how to get there. I am sorry this is off topic and turning into a rant I just need some friends who understand my loss and who won't judge me. I know I got to get back to the real world I am just terrified at doing it.