Well, here I am... again. I managed to get pg the cycle after my d&c in March, but sadly the baby is weeks behind in development and there is no heartbeat. My RE is fairly sure I'll miscarry soon.
I feel so numb right now. I can't cry, cry scream, can't rage... nothing. After losing 3 babies in 9 months, you'd think I'd be raising the roof in some sort of display. Maybe it's best that I can't cry right now-- I've also recently lost my job and I need to focus on finding another one. I just don't understand why. Maybe if I knew that, I could accept all of this better.
DH and I are good people, so why does it seem as if we're being punished?
Thanks for listening.