I had a really bad night lastnight. Why is it that one day I fell absolutely fine and then the next it's like I just can't stop crying! I know coming on here and "talking" to you girls helps a lot, but I really wish there was someone in my family or a friend I could talk to that understands what I'm going through. Everyone thinks I'm over it and have moved on. I think even my husband thinks that. I'm usually fine during the day, it's when I go to sleep at night, when my mind starts going. Lastnight I had to go lock myself in the bathroom & just cry! I do accept what happened to my baby and I understand I can and will get pregnant again. But just the thought of ever having to go through this again scares the heck out of me! Ever since I started talking about having children, my biggest fears were not being able to get pregnant or having something go wrong with the pregnancy. Now, here I am, facing one of those fears! Now all I think about is what if I can't get pregnant? What if I get pregnant but just can't carry? What if.......?? It's never ending. Will this ever get better? I know the Drs say don't TTC until you are emotionaly ready, but what if I really do want to TTC but am going to be emotional about it either way. I'm not sure if I will ever be emotionally ready! When I do get pregnant again, it's def going to be emotional for me. I think it would be for anyone. Am I right? Well, thanks for listening to me vent yet again! You girls are great!