When I found out I was pregnant, I was shocked, upset, scared! We were not planning another baby. I didnt know where we would put the baby in our house, we didnt have room in our car, and we certainly did not know where we were going to get more money for food, diapers, clothes, toys, and energy to care for a new baby all over again. Then I took a deep breathe and was excited, elated. I got to have another one!! YEAH!! But maybe my happiness came too late.....maybe those awful upset thoughts made God mad. I had taken the most wonderful thing you can get in life the news of a new pregnancy,and felt negative thoughts toward it!! I feel like Im being punished for that. I feel like if I had been happy from the start, maybe I wouldnt be losing my baby! Im soo sorry I ever had those thoughts! I wish I could take every single one back!! I will tell you one thing, It will never happen in the future! If Im ever lucky enoughto be blessed with another baby, I will cherish it every minute of every day!