I just wanted to again thank all of you wonderful ladies for the love, strength, and support that you give me. I wanted to send out hugs to all of you at this time of year. I know that I am finding each day harder than the one before. I am just hoping that this falls into that "firsts" category and will get a little easier with each passing year. I know that I am truly blessed to have my wonderful husband and the living children that I have. I have an amazing job and am able to provide for my family. I just have a very hard time feeling thankful for what I do have right now. I am feeling robbed and betrayed and beaten right now. I just cry and cry all the time. Oh man, I did not want this thread to go this way. I just wanted to say thank you to all of you amazing women. You are all truly my lifeline in the midst of this sea of pain and the unknown.