Well, I guess being a quiet board is a blessing.
Just checking in to see how everyone is doing.
We are in the middle of a heat wave, it got up to 20 degrees today. It was 2 degress last night w/o the wind chill.
Well it has been a long and tough road. I miscarried Rebecca in June of 2007 almost 3 years now. Since then I have had 2 other miscarriages but very early.
Pregnant bellies STILL bother me very much but only of woman I know. Strangers who are pregnant don't bother me and babies that are 6 months or older don't bother me either. Since my first lost 3 teachers I work with went on to have kids, my cousin had her baby and is now pregnant again. I have come a long way. My anxiety is controlled and I am actually beginning to look forward to trying IVF again for our 4th attempt at conceiving.
I am so grateful to this board and all the woman on it. I made a really good friend on this site who also lost her daughter. She was such a comfort to me early on after the loss. Although we don't talk much I know if I ever need her she would be there and for that I thank her.
To those that have recently lost a baby, I am truly sorry. It is the hardest thing anyone will ever have to go through but trust me when I say it does get better in time.
I hope everyone is doing the best they can. May we all heal and someday have our miracles.
Sending lots of baby vibes your way for your next IVF.
Pregnant women still bother me at time. Especially if I see them smoking or somthing.
I am glad you are able to look forward to the next IVF. It means you still have hope, a little hope can carry you a long way. Keepm us posted and sending hugs.
Friday (the 16th) is annvi of passing.
Sun (the 18th) is annvi of finding out (plus my Mom's best friend son dying at the EXACT moment i was told Zachary passed).
Mon (the 19th) is annvi of stillbirth. @ 4:42am 1lb 11 oz @ 33 wks.
We're gonna try to do a balloon release sometime over the wkend as long as the weather is ok. I wanted to try to get to Cape Cod. Being near the water helps. I know it will be crowded and busy cause of Monday plus all of MA has April vacation this coming wk.
I m/c'ed late last night. I woke up early this morning to a phone call from work... Apparently no one got the memo that I wasn't coming even though I called both my boss at the store level and the district level. My job requires that I be replaced, otherwise the place has to close down. So I woke up to stress after a night of the worst trauma I've ever experienced.
To top it off, I decided that I needed some comfort food for breakfast. Chick-fil-A has an awesome breakfast sandwich, chicken on a biscuit (and I get mine with egg and cheese too, just to make it extra yummy and unhealthy). DH loves them too, so we went out to pick up a couple (plus a Frapuccino from the Starbucks that is conveniently right next door). Well, I instantly regretted the decision when we pulled into the Chick-fil-A drive thru and I remembered that the lady who works there is visibly pregnant with the cutest little perfect belly. I couldn't help but stare at the belly and feel sorry for myself. She was extra super nice too, which made me feel like some sort of horrid person for being jealous of her belly. *Sigh*