As many may know, we lost our DS (14mo) in an accident last Monday. I haven't been up to posting here, but I finally got the gumption. It's really tough on us. He had a perfect 14mo, was a smiley happy boy, and loved everything to do with outdoors. He laughed and smiled all the time, but never so much as when he played with his older brother. He is sorely missed by all of us, but DH and I are really hurting, going through waves of normalness, then crying terribly.
A week before the accident, I found out I was preggo with our #2 (older brother is DH's). Although we are absolutely thrilled with this, I'm very nervous that Baby#2 may not stick (crazy emotions), and I'm worried that if it doesn't, that we would be very hesitant to TTC again, as much as the joy of having DS around was amazing and I wouldn't trade it for anything.
I guess I'm still partly in shock that this whole thing happened to begin with...
I'm so sorry about your very terrible loss That is something no parent should ever have to face.
Try not to worry too much about your pregnancy (easier said than done). No matter what happens, it is not your fault. You can't erase what has happened and, unfortunately, you can't control what will happen. Try not to let your fears for your new pregnancy stop you from grieving.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I don't think anything anyone can say will make things better but we are a loving and caring community and your story touched us all. Even though we don't know each other IRL, we're all thinking of you and your family and praying for your little bean.
I normally post/lurk on the July 07 boards and I am so sorry about the loss of little Reed.
I have some indirect experience with the loss of a child while pregnant, my mother in law was pregnant with DH when she lost a child. I'm not sure how far along he was when she went through all of the stress and grief but the only side effects on DH were that he had a messed up liver (low blood sugar). He is fine now except that he gets kind of mean when he is hungry.
Again, I am so sorry for the loss of Reed. I don't normally post to much on July 07 but I enjoyed hearing your stories about him and seeing his pictures.
Hugs and prayers. I am so very sorry for the loss of your beautiful little boy. Though I haven't posted on boards with you, I have seen your posts around, and he just radiated sunshine in every pic I saw. Definitely take the time to grieve for your son, and I hope and pray all is well with your new little one. Thinking of you often.