So i got a text from my colleague earlier, saying he was bringing his baby and wife into work with him tomo for a couple of hours. I really dont know what to do. If they ask me to hold the baby i know for a fact i am no where near ready to do that. Im not even ready to see it, i cant help feeling this way.
My colleague's wife had 2 m/c about a year and a half ago. He was so pleased for me when i got pg as we were able to talk baby stuff alot of the time. His baby was born about 2 weeks after my m/c. Now, i know he is excited and pleased and can think of nothing else but his newborn but it makes me feel like s**t. And it makes me feel really evil for not wanting to look at his baby. He has already shoved photos (ok perhaps not shoved) under my nose a few times and i just feel like screaming for gods sake more than anyone you should know not to do this!!!!!!!!!! I havent said anything at all to him to let him know i feel like this so perhaps its my fault a little. I dont want him to feel like he has to be careful about what he says infront of me but at the same time i wish he would at least acknowledge the fact its only been 5 weeks since my m/c and perhaps im not ready for all the baby talk and pics.
I really hate the way i sound as i know i would have been so happy and really involved had i still been pg. Its worse at the mo as i should be to 16 weeks, feeling my baby move.
So what do i say tomo when they all come in? I know what he is like and im sure he will try and give the baby to me. Do i just grit my teeth and put up? or should i say im really sorry im not ready for this and sound like a bitter old you know what! I dont want to make him out to be this horrid person because he really isnt, i just think he is thoughtless at times.
Colleague bringing baby into work tomo, what do i do? XP