It's like every little milestone you would have passed reminds you and sucks.
This weekend, we were going to tell my parents before we left on our trip, and then we were going to tell my In Laws this weekend. blah. oh well. I suppose
I am so sorry that you aren't sharing happy news with the grandparents. Some days just suck for lack of a better word. I find as we approach the holidays it gets more difficult. My birthday is Friday and it is not fair that Lily will not be with me.
Yes it does come in waves. Some waves are huge, drag you under and leave you gasping for air waves and others are just get you wet up to the knees and irritate you waves.
I have found that what others have said is true (for me at least) the first time "fill in the blank" happens is always a gut wrenching experience. It gets ever so slightly easier to handle the next time that it happens.