On this day last year I was in hospital. I can remember everything like it was yesterday and even though I have been blessed with the birth of my son in December I still feel the emotional pain of loosing my first baby.
I was so happy to find out I was pregnant and told everyone then just 5 weeks after I found out I lost my baby. S/he had died at 6 weeks and I had carried them for another 5 weeks.
I knew something was wrong but it wasn't until the 21st January last year, when I saw the ultrasound and there was no HB that I believed it. I sat there in the room looking at the screan with DH and the ultrasound tech left us so we could look at our baby and cry. I still cry now wondering the "what if's" and I feel all sorts of emotions..if my baby hadn't died then I would never have known my DS.
I went home that night and misscarried at home quietly with DH with me.
I tell DS often about his big brother/sister, I don't want to keep it from him. I miss my baby every day.
I'm so happy to have had the support of everyone here. It's just sad that the grief and loss boards have to be here.
:bighug: to everyone