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    I know I am still very early in the grief process, but today is the first day since we found there was heartbeat, that I have not had my husband or sister with me, and wow, it has been a rough day. I cried and cried through my whole shower, and have picked a few quiet moments when the kids were occupied to shed some more tears. I do not like crying in front of ppl, because then they cry, and then I cry, and it is a vicious circle. Anyhow, being alone, I tend to cry more, do you do this too?

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    I typically tend to do this as well. When we found out at the 2nd ultrasound, I didn't cry at all. My husband had to return work so I called off work and went home. As soon as I was inside that house I couldn't stop crying.

    However last night I did cry in front of my husband, and honestly it made me feel better. I think it helps him understand how hard this is for me, and that it's gonna take some time for me to deal with it.

    I've always felt that crying in front of people makes me feel very vulnerable. So very rarely will I cry in front of someone. I think my husband has seen me cry maybe 3 times, and unfortunately those have all been in the past 6 months.
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    Definitely. My DS was stillborn in Feb and people are always saying how good I'm doing. Kinda drives me crazy b/c the second I'm alone I'm overwhelmed w/ grief. He is still on my mind 24/7, but I'm at the point I can work/socialize "normally". I think it is really important to allow yourself time to be alone, though. B/c that is when the real soul-cleansing crying/screaming can be done w/ no reserve. Allow yourself that, you deserve it and I do believe it is essential in beginning to heal.

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    I def cried much more alone....We tend to put a strong front on for others, even though we are seeking their support/strength....

    Sending many too you..

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    Kati, yeah, crying in front of the husband does help him as well, so I do that as well, I think I just save the big tears for later.

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    I know what you mean. I think it's just easier to let it all go when you're on your own, you're not worried about how anyone's gonna react, just about letting those emotions out.
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    Absolutely!

    I rarely cry in front of anyone about anything (I have such a brave face!) but alone is a very different story. When we lost our angels, I totally broke down each time -- but only in private.

    Glad to know this seems to be the norm!

    Cheers,
    Nicole

    (PS Rachel -- it WILL get better, sweetheart. One day you won't cry about this when you're alone)

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    I, too, grieve more when I am alone.


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    Yes, I do grieve more when I am alone.

    My husband is a fixer and it tears him up that he can't fix this for me. So, I wait until I am alone and let it out. I also tend to dwell on our loss when I am alone because I don't have anything else to focus on.

    I am so very sorry for your loss and all that you are going through.

    Shelly

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    I agree with all of you, I cried alot more when I was alone! Like a pp, people would say "how strong" I was, and I would always think, "if you could only see me when Im alone" I wanted to be alone also, so that I could cry! I think it is very normal, its hard to let our guard down, even around our loved ones, especially if you dont feel like they will understand. I cried in front of my dad ONE time because he told me I needed to "get over it" and it hadnt even been a week, so from that point on, I just kind of "hid" all my grief!

    Im sorry rachel!! HUGE HUGS your way!!

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