I don't know if what I'm feeling is right. I just found out on Thursday (my DS 1st birthday) that our baby had no hearbeat... measured 8 weeks 6 days, and I should have been 9 weeks at the appointment... so it was a very recent occurance. I had a D&C yesterday (friday) and physically I am ok, but I just can't stop crying. Everyone keeps telling me how lucky I am to have one healthy child already... and this is making me feel even more guilty! I love my DS to death!... but I still want my baby I just lost. It kills me to know a week ago everything was fine! I don't know what I did wrong! I just feel horrible, and I know it must be selfish because I already have a child. Now I just keep thinking about the day we can start to try again, and that causes a whole new guilt trip! I feel like I can't win, anything that makes me feel better a little bit, also makes me feel worse. How do I deal with this!?!